Escape

As the laughters boomed, we knew the lords are back. We stopped tracked of what we are doing and moved towards the inner of the house. Hoping that the lords won't spot us.

Their chats n laughs were contradicting.
The more happiness we detect the more unhappiness grew in us.

"they are in a good mood." says one trembling.
"who will they choose to torture? " say the other.

Finally, the bravest of all," we shouldn't continue living in fear any more."

"let's plan for escape."

Lone soldier

All is quiet.
It's only the murmuring of the night that surrounds u.
Calm.
Time ticks by.
Dawn is coming. Another frightful day ahead

I have trust no one.
Nor believe.
I've made friends with lonely.
I'm w myself.

War is here!

When dawn breaks, you know you have to prepare for war.
The hardships. The dread n the unhappiness.

When can all these stop.
Perhaps waiting for the leaders to die seemed unlikely.
Waiting for civilians to die seemed more attainable.

Can they just find me in my room n shoot me to death.
Please let it b a clean death.
Last hope.

He wailed.
First time, the quarrel turned out to be like that.
He had gone as looney as lky. At that time, I was afraid and smirking..
Smirking at his stupid reaction n the unhappiness he again caused.

I hope he just die. But he didn't.
So the cold war with allies will continue and war will break out any time soon.

I was wondering when he says he is ill-fated.. Den what are we?
I think I killed his whole family in my previous life. I think my bro is the accomplice.
In any case, we will hav to cotinue to suffer in this big piles of shit.

I've grown sick n irritated.

I am not sure what will I do next..
Life is full of shit. My shit will stained on me till I die

new revelation

one of my colleague tells me
"this is a place that give me a job not my career"

such a revelation!!

everyone is asking me why do i hate my job so much
and this is the answer i have been seeking for!!

seriously.. i have nothing to ask for.
with the money they have given me.
P.S i earn as much as him

Oh well..
for the money..
i think i am satisfied
but for the satisfaction
i think i have wasted my life

a career..
this is the word of the year...
this is what i want
i want to have something that I can relate to
to make people believe
to defunct their thinking
to make them regret

but i cant get it here..

oh well..
good bye this lousy govt body

i will come to u..
if i am poor and desperate.
thanks ah gong!

i seriously hate them

as suggested in the title.
i really hate them to the core.

y must i be in their cycle.
nothing they do can make me feel happy
especially him
it has come to a time.. i even smirk when something bad befall him.
but what i can say.. he already has his retribution
to have me hating and cursing him repeatedly everyday

i may be a mean person from how i write it
but like what we had learn in school.
there's always a cause and effect

my whole life is ruined, thanks to him
and no one truly understands why this happened.

even if they ask.
they wont know why i feel this way

so.

don't ask.

isit our fault?

went for the annual qin ming jie..
and the usual, "youngsters"nowadays stories were ranted by the elders..

the topic of the day is the "i" mentality of us now.

"i"
to them.. everything we do starts with "i"
friends are important
family is last
what they do must be beneficial to them etc..

At that gathering..
i really felt like telling them back..
do u all ever sit down and think that this is all your fault?!
Seriously..
How we work straightly boils down to how we are cultivated.
if we have the "i" mentality, don't our parents have it too?

If there is good food that is to be shared..
what will be on our parents mind?
"i want my child to have it"

when your child got better results that the rest
"my child is just lucky la, but he really works hard for it"

Seriously, why do we have this mentality of "i"?
Isnt it our parents motivation and teaching?
""You must work hard for your future"
"IF this job is not helping you, change it"
"This is beneficial for your studies mea? Do for what?"
"Art cant give u bread, study art for what?"

So is it our fault? OR is it theirs?
I am not being defensive about our generation.
However, times have changed. We are taught for survival.
And THEY inculcate this into our mind.

Friends are impt than family?
Is this true.
Before the old fogies say that, dont they feel ashamed?
I have frens whose Sunday are dedicated to their wonderful close-knitted family.
Y?
The family is what he/she treasure ços he/she find peace, happiness, solace in it.
if you can't provide your child that, dun expect your child to return you the same quality time u yearned for.

but nonetheless, we cant push all the blame away.
The stereotype of our generation is deeply rooted but injustically justified.

I for once, feel that the louder the elder rant..
the more it portray y their child have the "i" spirit.

P.S M.of.E also plays a deep part in this too. Thanks~

if you can be reborn.. what do you want to be?

if you were given a chance to be reborn..

what do u want to be?

someone who is born with a silver spoon?

A bird?

OR...

A pauper?

If you are given a wish what will you wish for?

Win lottery?

Be happy?

Or..

Be reborn?

I want..

to lose all my memories, became an orphan and miraculously given a billion dollars to spend the rest of my life.

My Maslow curve is all screwed.

hope - less

was watching this new korean show..

and the lead was feeling hopeless due to constant betrayal and lost of kins

in the end, she decide to give it all. She had a plan.. to kill her enemies and then end her life. At least to her, she feels better rather than to dwell in the upset-ness.

To me.. I wish i can do the same.

I wish they were dead.

when i tot..

when u were dreaming beautifully..

of the ocean
of the sky

u just have to wake up that soon..

to come back to reality.


i just want one night.. to let me feel right.

dream

i will pack my bag
with some money in hand

with my camera

we will go missing for awhile..


target departure date: Sept 2011

Writing...

It has been sometime since I scribble...
It has been sometime since I rant..

It's great being back

I am gg to start sharing lots of stuff
showcasting self's creation
and maintaining my emotions here

it's been sometime

I missed my thoughts

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