StoRies to sHaRe...

well.. peeps, bear with me.

*btr do look at the post, 2 suaykias, 2 piggies... if u happen to miss it.. when i post it, it was not post as the latest entry!*

these stories are what that touched me long long time ago..
was searching for stories and came upon it again!
well, they still had the effect. hope u all will like it..

1st story:

Unconditional Love story

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.

"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me."

"Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are. Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are.

Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and to help us all be more understanding of those who are different from us!!!

2nd story:

Short sad story

A boy walked into a CD store
and saw a girl behind the counter.

She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.

He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.

"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did
everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it
wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't
know? He passed away yesterday...

" The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother
went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she
would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she
picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The
mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD...

Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out
with me? Love, Jacelyn

3rd story: LOVE Means..

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle) Girl: Slow
down. Im scared. Guy: No this is fun. Girl: No its not. Please, its to scary! Guy:
Then tell me you love me. Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down! Guy: Now give me a BIG
hug. (Girl hugs him) Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.
In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke,
but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt
her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it
meant he would die.

Well will find more stories~~
Have a nice day!

when yr treshold level is exceeding

i hAte it..
i am dying..
please bless me~

muahaha..
give me a 完美的葬礼。。
let me rest in peace..


okie.. the above are all nonsense..
it's vv obvious that i am having a pre-exams PMS-ing..
argh...
i gonna flunk~!!!!

2 suay kias, 2 piggys, 2 best frens

2.30am on 19/4/2006...
haha.. piggy is sleeping.. hope she dun realise that i am blogging.
we just finish our supper and "dong" she fell asleep.
can't blame. she woke up damn early for her gym lessons @ cedar. (she's a P.E teacher k, muahaha)

well, shan decide to stay over in my room so she need not travel all the way back to her house and den back again to school to mug again!
well..
the two of us == SUAYEST PEOPLE

haha.. we r combo sia~
it's like tat, yz n my together and suan me..
When we get together.
vv suay things happen to us!
we r so scare alr lo..

wad happen??
okie.. well, anOther of our funny disasters.
after our mugging, we head back to my room.
well, tt DAY, only tt DAY, the bus was packed.
moi and this suay kia had to carry so much stuff in our hand n squeeze on the bus.
well, it was only packed behind 'cos got this great "kinad and considerate" soul decide not to move infront and made me and her squeeze at the back of the bus.
tell u..
the bus uncle, think watch too much initial D.
He GOES ON FULL SPEED even when turning!!!
argh.. can u imagine it.
two of us, one hand holding a support, the other hand holding our heavy textbooks and we are not well balanced. we were standing on close feet 'cos it was packed. ( if u can open up a little, it aids in balancing.)
and me and her.. were set for this rollercoaster ride.
We are so unbalanced.
okie.. cant really describe the scenario.
BUT it was so mao leng han tt, two guys finally offered to let us sit.
i is grateful.
BUT, i cant even move to the seat. 'cos it is so........... FAST!!!!!!!!!!
i nearly fell, den i decide to kneel down instead. and the two guys look at me.. dunno wad to do with me.. (i cant walk to yr seat idoits! haha.. no la.. u two are good ppl)

Finally, at HSS, the uncle STOPS! why? ppl wan to go down ma.. and two of us found a seat, hide and start laughing profusely..
everytime sure got stupid things happen to us..
it is so disgraceful!
i tell u!! VERY !!!

haha.. den when we walk to my block..
saw someone gg up and i decide to walk slowly, 'cos i cant find the transponder.
BUT this good soul, wait for me..
so after i found the transponder, i rush to the lift..
AND the LIFT decide to close the door. *RIGHT INTO MY FACE*
and the stupid me.. never move.. let the door close.. nearly crushed my face..
lucky the "stunned" guy in the lift managed to press the door open!
and my dear shan..
she run into a place and laff.. she say it was so farnie tt she dunno which button to press..
wahaha..
damn farnie~~

okie.. no more stories.. don't u think we are a riot? haha..
well,
after our bath, we decide to be sinful and i treat shan with my S'mores! haha..
den we began to 暗算 each other again.
i feed her with food.
we even had 鲜虾云吞 much much later..
haha.. she tried to eat abit only lo..
muahaha..

okie.. end of our wonderful mini-sleepover..
was fun!!

-jiayou girls(ss, km, ch) and also to the rest of my frens-

smth to smile @ after luNch

haha.. back from lunch..
dun feel like gg back to heap..
clueless..
and exam is on friday!

smth to share..
hope everybody likes it..
9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the TV. remote because they refuse to walk to the TV. and change the channel manually. ?

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it? ?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses! ?

5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.! ?

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine? ?

7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new. ?

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer? ?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumb ass?

have a niCe daY

星期二的我

left 3 days??
1102 not confident, 1104 not confident, marketing not confident.
gem and lsm not touched..
where am i heading to?
no mood..
NO MOOD!!! argh...

in the lib now..
feeling as blue as ever..
今天没海看, 只好看树..
告诉你, 树不好看! 我要看海,看天空!
明天, 最好给我看到!
我要死了, 好累..
祝福我 吧........................................................................................................................................

沉思的夜晚

the weather nowadays are so bad...
it makes yr mood blue too!

it's the best time of the year to STONE!
haha.. mayb its becos i am studying! *like to stone when i'm studying*
after chatting for a short while on msn..
i decide to listen to this song <<蔷薇>>.
gg to jam this song after exams and i insist i wan to sing..
haha..

well, tt's not the point..
the point is tt.
i wan to becum someone like chen qi zhen.
to have a vocal like elva..
but then i realise..
i cant!
hmm.. quite a saddening tot.
tho they say if u train u can get it.
well, the talents i defi dun have..
the skills of guitar can be trained.
and most importantly, i cant have the 潇洒 voice tt elva has..
record abit of 蔷薇 and den i delete it away immediately..
really cmi..
hai~~ haha..
i need to train more..
i realise there are times when u wan to be someone(not exactly the same), its not all about the hard work that u r willing to put in but rather whether do u have the capabilities to do it or not.
my dreams seems so far.
okie, its damn far.
my desire not to go usa is stronger.
i am in such a dilemma.
i really hope exams are over soon!!
so it can give me potential time to really sit down and think..
oh well, we will see how it goes..
and come to think of it..
i am getting excited too! haha..
i can get my guitar after exams! oh boy.. so freaking excited.. and my irish coffee!
well well.
i must be calm!
okie.. back to my AVL trees!

*pLs blEsS moi!*

头痛

was talking abt the migraine just now right..
it seems like it got worse abit..
hai~
i hope it can be under control..
i dun want those migraines i always had..
tt one is unbearable!
this is the time..
i wan to go home!
argh!
save me..

it's been such a long time tt you come..
and u choose a time to attack me when i am not at home..
shit..
hope it will get better.
bless me!

我要式着爱1102..
我恨我爱你!!

星期六。。

another post of my day!
haha.. plans to go home today! finally.. but it is only for a short while..
decide to go cut my hair..
the end result...
stress.. not wat i wanted.. and got abit of 娃娃头..
stressified.. i DUN WANT!
but after the hairdresser hairdry my hair..
i feel tt its okie la..
sianZ~~~
but i need to do alot of work to get tt look..
haha.. decide not to care!
my hair will be more messy than ever..
muahaha.. *i gt a feeling tt it got an auntie look. double stress*

went to ah gong's place to eat before go back home.
while waiting for my mum to cook..
i watch SuperBand.
damn. aren't they good?
their love for music is wow~~~
this makes me think whether to go over to usa not.
(if they call me la..)
half a year ago. i dun have any aim, no dreams, no passion!
but now..
i wan to do learn instruments...
cant wait for holidays to come! so i can go learn..
learn liao..
den i can get my music room! haha..
den move on to other stuff..
or i can learn different stuffs concurrently..
if i go usa..
i doubt i will have time.. :(
haha.. but i shall see how it goes after exams!
*i am being fickled-minded abt wad to learn again! haha..*

after tt went home to take my 1104 textbook!
haha.. den went for my supermarket trip!!!

woohoo.. was so excited! got so many things wan to buy and heard the cold storage is damn big lo. haha..
den i shop shop shop..
bought so many stuff and its all tibits!
went to cold storage! there are so many new stuff!
i saw so many meat. so many sauces, so many pastas!
*eileen, and so many different baking stuff! we can bake after our exams. and i saw so many pastas. tortilini, pasta sauces... etc etc..*
*hehe.. we can cook up a feast one day!*

the bill came up to such a large sum that i was quite shock!
and i bought S'mores! haha..
know it from my fav. Archies comics and today i saw.. cant resist it and decide to buy and try..
so expensice okie!
den its raining heavily just now..
tell u cannot go back pgp.. and i cant go to bukit timah food centre to buy my peanut dessert.. well, its okie..
haha.. go back there straight to pgp lo...
tell u the sudden weather 'cos me to have my old ailment(migrane) again...
argh.. fed up!!
haha.. hope it will got worse..
i am having m&ms to make it better.. bless me!

*i am broke! haha.. wish me luck for exams!*
* i gg to cook up a feast after exam!*

四个臭男人， 一个笨女人，一个受害者

haha..
today, study with 4 idoitic guys..
and these 4 idoitic guys "suan" me from morning till dawn..
thanks ah...
was thinking whether i am really tt good to suan..
first..
they suan me abt my eating..
all my "dun wan la.. ", " i wan to jian fei"...
and the best part is...
they wan to eat dinner will announce that i am the one tt is hungry and wan to go for dinner..
k, alot of times i am like tt..
BUT!!!
haha.. thanks!

and one more right..
the 笨女人。。
no other den... *ah-hem.. her nick name will explains why i call her 本女人*
haha.. laff with them..
and suan me time to time, when i din notice!!
to think.. i tot we are on the same frequency.. and u!!!
laff with them~!!!
nvr mind! haha.. 我忍！

the 臭男人is the worse..
never stop..
even when go home..
still "suan"
attempt to leave me in engine and go off without me..
i have no true frens.. *sob*

hahah..
and lastly after listening to all my whining..
u should know who is the 受害者了吧..
that's me..
n0 other ppl...

hahah...
well, was fun today tho! thanks!

微笑

*picture "coup" fr. ah ng|a's blog*

was listening to leehom's 《一首简单的歌》
and i got to notice this two sentence and it made me think..

我一直在思考
让你了解我的好
却忘了
常常对你微笑...

feel smth close to yr heart?
have u forgotten to smile at yr families, frens n close ones recently??
when u try to be someone, try to be good, try to do yr best...
u seems to forgot the best thing in the whole world..
u forgot it is important.
u forgot how important it meant to yr close one..
u forgot..
YOUR SMILE.

just a smile, can brightens up someone's day.
so no matter how stress yr day is, no matter how sad u are, no matter how busy u are...
just a smile..
will makes everyone's day brighter and brighter..
i am not toking rubbish..
even a smile to a stranger will make his day a good one.
and he will naturally smile to every other person he saw that day.
So start making yr life a happier one and pass it on to the person you will see on that day.
Make yr day and everyone's day count!

PASS IT ON!

天空

最近的天空一直在哭。
不知道发生了什么事让它那么伤心。。
它那么的沮丧。。
每天都在流泪， 连我也觉得有点闷闷的。
为什么呢？

昨晚， 还好好的。。
以为天空想通了什么， 所以心情好好。。
没有乌云， 只有月光！
月亮又大又圆把整个地方都照亮了 。
地方是亮了，我的心情也是！：）
不止喔， 星星也出现了。
不是一颗， 是好多好多！！！！
好漂亮！！

但今天下午，
他却哭得稀里哗啦。。。
可怜。。

10 things to make me happy

opps..
tat says i write wrongly.. *see sassifying post*
should be 10 things that can make me happy!
haha.. and he shall be the first to do it for me..

okie.. i still appreciate the work and brain juice you all have did to help me write the 10 things about moi!
i love it alot! thanks..
will change my bad habits :)
haha.. okie..

if any of u all r free..
haha.. help me do this one too! :)

*tat says this is an excercise to show whether you all know wad makes me happi not.. haha..
he is killing himself man!*

4th May..

that's my last paper!
that's my freedom~

i could not keep my excitement and i decide to blog!
Nanli says he found a place to drink irish coffee!
oh my!!
but have to wait till 4th May!
oh well..
but it's okie..
i will work hard for it!
tt's my reward..

thanks boi!!!
i will gambette! :)

音乐

i realise i am not good at anything.
was hoping that i could specialise in something and enjoyed it.
i could only live once.
y not made this one a good one.
and a one to be proud of.

well, the only think i could think of now was to do something related to music.
i love music.
but i have no knowledge about it.
i wan to specialise in something.
i wan to showcase my talents.
i wan you to be proud of me.

so after much consideration.
And to say the truth.
i am not sure whether i made the correct choice...
i decide to learn guitar.
and foresake my loving for drums.
however, i think i will learn abit of drums.
Maybe some rhythms or some sort.
maybe one day after i think i am ready *after guitars?*
i will learn drums.

-ching, why not u learn le. master it den u teach me??-
also, not forgetting to improve my singing..
am i ambitious?
i think i am..
but i will try my best!
wish me luck! :)

Sassi-fying

未来的人。。。
你相信有这个人吗？
~命运是会为付出的人，建立起一座叫做偶然的桥梁~

FINISHED WATCHING "MY SASSY GIRL" THIS MORNING!

laff until i think my roommates think i am crazy..
at 4am a crazy woman next door is laffing madly to herself!!
den in the end dunno got hear this mad woman cry not. hee..
it's such a nice show..
mayb it's becos it has been a long time since i watch it again there's alot of part which i have already forgotten. and when i saw it again..
it's like watching a new movie!

haha..
many would think not that nice. -so just bear with me k-
the food is nice lo.
wanna eat korean.
'cos never really eat an original korean food before.
Dun consider eating korean food in food court counts! :p

okie..
well, got a weird idea.
u know in the show(for those who dunno), the guy is able to recite 10 things, he needs to do when he is with her or what the girls like to do/tends to do (i think smth like tt, die.. i got short term memory)..
so, for those who are free haha..
could u do something for me??
Could you all do the same for me?
-ok, i know its lame.. but for the fun of it i would like to know what a person i am when i am with you all! haha.. u knoe.. i think i can foresee, act cute as the first one on the list lo. -_-" -

*haha.. must help me do wor.. when u all r free! :)*
*ch, km, ss, u all r not spared. i know u all have the face "oh shit, my name is mentioned!" but just do for me ma.. relac relac lo..*
*tell me on msn oso can!*
*okie.. no need 10. just list a few~*


-okie.. think tt would be all.. jiayou peeps!-

韩国餐！

好饿喔！ :)
'm watching "My Sassy Girl".
the food was so nice!

I wan to go eat korean food!
I wan to be like 全知贤！
I wan to have an exciting life like her in the show(minus the sad past). :)

well, blog more about the show after i finish watching it. :)
好浪漫，好好吃哦！
btw.. this is my dunno how many times i watch this show.
Think got 5 to 6 times. hee..

十二点钟

oh.. realise that it is over midnight!
that means i have to change! :)
dun care abt that post.
aftr this post i will be like cinderella change to another person! :)

but i think i gonna change to a better one..
please anticipate the new me! :)

i am going to be 淑女！ hehe..
oops.. 要温柔。。

失踪！

打算在msn消失一阵子。。
如果看不到我不要吃惊， 我只是想闭关修炼。
一定不可能but我会劲力。。
反正msn坏掉了！
而且它坏了连我的hotmail也跟我耍性子。。
真是他妈的衰！

现在什么都不能做。。

好啦。。 如果想我请读以下的东西：

Feel like you are going insane?

Heart pain and emotional confusion?

You probably have the "I MISS HWEE LOO" syndrome!

For instant relief, SMS/CALL: *my hp no.* :p


okie.. seriously think my msn 没救了，
i only hope that my hotmail will be fine!
真是tmd!!!!!

温暖牌的饭

什么是温暖牌饭？
你对温暖牌饭的定义是什么？


考试到了，
打算就不回家了，在学校发奋图强。
嗨。。。
好久没吃温暖牌饭了。。
每当肚子再跟我闹情绪时，我好想好想吃温暖牌饭！ ：）
温暖牌饭是不是每天晚上饭桌上妈妈为你煮的一餐呢？
算是吧。。
那你一定会说想吃就回家吃咯！
但是。。。。
我的定义不是这样啊！
温暖牌饭一定是要一大伙人， 坐在一起吃着好吃的食物，说说笑笑的吃完一餐！！
我以为温暖牌饭就是要有饭有汤有肉， 但我现在明白了原来一个温暖的晚餐/午餐/早餐最重要的就是要有陪伴。

没有烦恼，
没有期限，
没有压力，
只有快乐，
只有欢笑，
只有话题，
只有你我。

考试快点跟我离开， 我要好好享受我的每一餐！

spinwheel n ugliness go hand in hand

tiredness+late nights+sweat+stress+dirt = pimples + ENZYME + spinning

argh!

CANT STAND IT!!
-please save me!-

my cutesie clan..

was so damn freaking happy yesterday's night..
they really made my day! *smilez*
who r the they??

well, let me introduce to you my clan in university!! my clique from GRASS! muahaha..
everyday, in sch is nvr bored!!

haha.. well well.. let me see ah..
let me tell u the origin of my clan! wahaha..
first.. yt decide to follow wy to write out his name on msn to be mirror image..
and act cute MY follow suit too..
and moi.. decide not to lose out also change my name to mirror image, and i ask ch to change too..
so the five of us! u will see tt our nick will always be in mirror image..(some sort la.. but MY seems to change his nick liao..)
haha..
okie.. last night! that's the main part!
was so hilarious.. i and yt was like two idoits laffing madly at business..

this is wad happened!
moi: i felt like scolding my a bad boi.. (okie.. becos he did smth in the afternoon.. haha)
yt: okie!
-den both of us change our nick to "Mingyang is a bad boi.."
wahaha.. i tell ch and wy to change too
wy's nick: "Jennifer ask me to change my nick to "Mingyang is a bad boy.""
ch's nick: Mingyang is a bad boi. i is innocent!

wahaha.. den i think my dunno lor! until tat tells him! den he freak out!!!
damn farnie!!
he ask me to change.. den i decide to ignore him..
this cums the best part!!

wy's nick: "Mingyang asked me NICELY to change my nick to Mingyang is a good boi." -tio suan- wahaha
so damn farnie lo..
guess wad.. my's nick: I am not mingyang. thank you..

wahaha.. its so damn freaking farnie..
and den he ask he to change my nick..
so i decide to suan him.
moi's nick: "Mingyang asked me NICELY to change my nick too. etc etc.."
haha.. i think he fed up!
den he say he wan to eat 斋！ (b a vegetarian? pls lar.. )
and the worse thing is his msn pic change to a buddha pic!
muahaha.. he really is so damn farnie!

haha.. den after sometime.. we got bored and we decide not to care abt him liao..
muahaha.. and tt's the end of my last night's fun!!
haha..


*okie.. back to my mugging..*

Substitution...

blogging again..
haha..

well..
cant go sing ktv so i will use blogging as a substitution to relief stress lo!
haha..

was reading marketing yesterday and we got into alot of econs terms. and one term that we tok alot is SUBSTITUTION~
what's substitution to you?
a thing tt u cant get and u decide to to find something tt is similar to replace it?

well, was stoning for awhile.. and i got a scenario came up to my mind..

customer: Hi, can i have this please? *pointing to a camera*
salesgirl: opps. sorry, it's sold out. Do you want to look at other models?
customer: *disappointed* wad abt this on display? Or is the camera cuming in another time? Can i make an order?
-this customer is desperate.. he already set all his heart and mind to buy tt camera. For wad reason, we dunno but one fact that we know is that he liked it alot.-
salesgirl: i'm sorry. But the camera wun be coming in for a period of time.. *blah blah.. just some reasons that the he wun get the camera la..*

okie.. so this customer became disappointed. he badly wans tt camera but for some reason he cant have it..
salesgirl: why about this camera? tho, its not exactly the model that u wanted but the functionality is about the same! also, it do look abit like tt camera..
customer: er.. i will look around.. thanks for yr info..

WELL, this customer definitely will not give up 'cos he knows there may be other stores selling that camera too..
WHAT IF...
he is as suay as me too?
that camera extincts.. no use he cant find it..

den wad will he do?? *he's in need of camera wor!*

he will go and look for SUBSTITUTE!
den he will go see look see look..
he will consider wad the salesgirl and say..
没有鱼，虾也好！
and so he bought something which is AVAILABLE and is smth which is similar to wad he wanted..

*he is happy n not happy*
wad am i toking abt?
happy: he got a camera
not happy: it is not something he wanted but he have to 随便接受他

well.. he think he is not happy? wad abt the camera??

camera: hai.. i am not likeable.. my owner dun like me for i am but like me becos i am a substitute for the model he like.. everytime he use me to take photos, he will tot of the model he like previously..hai..

*freak.. hurts sia~*

okie.. i am crazy.. but substitution may not be so bad..
u cant find something u like but u found smth similar, u will feel good too..
well, in other words,
it is good to the person who is deciding.. but bad for the "substitute"

i am doing substitution now too.. *oh no..*
dun have a hot latte with me, a hot milo will be statisfying too..
i is happy!
We are practising substitution all the time!! muahaha..

okie.. i feel like i am toking nonsense.. but..
i is real bored! u can ignore this post! :p

the perfect him..

muahaha...
ch is watching too much 偶像局again!!
haha.. but this time.. it's different...

HOW different.. u may wan to ask..
well cant divulge much.. but it's really different!

Was chatting on msn just now..
and we decide to have a 美丽的邂逅（see too much this type of show la..)
okie.. she onZ so i decide to onZ with her..
muahaha..

so yah.. the both of us thinking of our 邂逅。。
and i tot of smth real farnie!

moi: hey, i think you must find the other half that is will hit u back when u hit him! like tt den fun wad...
ch: yeah.. but if he hit me real HARD. HE is DEAD!!
moi: lol... *tell u i really burst out laffing*
moi continue: hey, if u all really fight, please tell me, i dun mind paying 5 bucks for this show!
*ch is happy.. wahaha.. 'cos i am willing to pay.. got an intuition, she and her bf will always act shows for me to see.. so i will pay up!*

okie.. those who know ch will get the joke.. 'cos i really flipped! wahahah..

okie..
ch: den ss lea? wad sort of bf?
moi: someone who can rap with her? wahaha.. j/k
*to those out there she is damn nice lo.. yr criteria must be high ah.. and of course must go tru the three girls' (moi included) approval before u all can do anything.. :p *
ch: den u lea..
moi: *think think* someone who can act cute with me?
ch: wahaha..
- okie.. and the rest of the conversation shall not be included in! haha..

well.. we talk alot.. and i tot of who shall i find..
and i realise.. i decide to find someone like patrick (jas bf, who suan each other!), can sing like jay(okie. just good in music, okie.. singing good can liao! haha..), as talent as jay(wahaha.. jiu shi li hai), as charasmatic as Richie ren, and etc etc etc...
-i know ch read le will tell me to wait long long.. 你看到啦， 真得很久！but neber mind.. i dun give a damn! 我要帮你chinghui!!!-

wahaha.. i is crazy.. so many criteria wor!
of course.. it's just a dream..
i gg to 淡水to find tt someone! haha..

so now.. i am helping my two vv good frens to search! haha.. please do apply! good catch hard to find.. *got a feeling, i wun be in school next week.. kana killed by both of them.. wahaha*
-美丽的邂逅-
u all may be wondering wad abt km? hmmm.. she ah.. got 男人了lea。 budden if u think u have the criterias u also can apply.. haha.. yeah!!

yeah..
den we realise.. wad if we cant find??
den we shall build a house just for the 4 of us! its call B.C.P.S. *dun tell u the meaning..*

wanna have a dog with me! (it's the nippon paint dog!) but before i say..
both of them say NO!
argh..
shan even wans his teeth to be taken all out..
den he bo gei liao lea.. *how to eat???*
poor thing!
but neber mind! haha..
was anticipating tt house! *cool lea.. we tot of alot of facilities to be build for the house!*

i is crazy.. on estacy the whole night!
'm tired but i not sleeping..
*went to record songs again.. my new passion.. but it sucks.. and in the end i delete away the file*


-liFe iS bEaUtiFul.. cherish it and love it.. trust me! u wun regret it!-
- i love mYsElF-

alpha moi~

wahaha.. just a short post!
i have wonderful friends around me! i am blessed!
is a stressful month, so my frens please endure! :)

well.. wad's an alpha.. someone to start smth..
haha.. read up the dictionary yah..

well, my cuteness had been spreading!
it's like the forest fire in Sumatra, cannot be prevented.. muahaha.. i is alpha!
well well, just wanna say..

wingyan.aKa.dim1 has master my skills of pouting and "nua-ing"(the sound i made when i dun feel like doing anything.. okie. u can say "teh-ing" budden.. i got so disgusting mea.. wahahah..)
its such a feat!
was so damn farnie when she did that..
i feel accomplished!
i is proud!
wahaha.. okie.. i am sorry..
*narcissism acting up!*

well well, another person who has master my skill of act. (actually) cuteness is MY!
wahaha.. today study.. he make farnie noises..
when i am doing things.. cant really explain.. but he DID IT!! (ask me to demonstrate to u when u see me again!)
he is disgusted!
MOI too!!
fed up!
wahaha..

LOL! so fun.. i'm alpha.. wanna join my club?
wahaha..
u must be as cute as us wor~

*bleah :p*

wonderful entries

was slacking in the comp lab @ soc..
wanna relac to recharge for my final lap to the exams! getting stressed up! hope it will be over soon with the fact that i must be fully prepared. well, was browsing my frens entries and blinkymonkey entries and i found entries that are worthwhile mentioning and to say.

It has been hard to find such blogs liao.. wanting to do these type of entries but i end up to whine and rant in my own blog! *am so sorry, my frens!*
good entries hard to cum by..
please do go take a looks at it.
read it, feel it and think about it!

my dear girl, jasmine's blog: http://www.jaspieceofheaven.blogspot.com/
entry: For all beautiful women well.

would like to say the same things to all girls out there.
People may have views on who u r! BUT dun be dis-heartened by them! every person has this special element in them to distinguish themselves from the rest! and this element is sPeCiaL. it's only IN you and nobody else!
LOVE yourself, 'cos nobody can understand you any better than yourself!
LOVE the way you are, You are you, you cant change it! *that's what makes u special. :)* lastly... Love your LIFE! 'cos life is beautiful! *well, shall not be biased.. this applies to the males out there too..
LOVE YOURSELF!* *i need to tell myself this too.. haha
* (JAs hope u dun mind abt me linking yr blog.. :p i love yr entry! :) )

up next BlinkyMonkey: http://blinkymummy.blogspot.com/2006/04/i-will-love-you-if-you-gratify-me.html
entry: I Will L.O.V.E. You If You Gratify Me, Darling!

haha.. interesting posts.. was feeling tt there's a certain of truth element in there.. I am definitely not tt kind! *i swear! 'cos i will hate myself! haha.. contradicting to the previous post* but however, somehow, somewhere, you feel that i am a materialistic person! please do inform me.. i need to CHANGE! 'cos i do not WANT to be them...

sorry, am being a bit mean! but, in this society(i am referring to Singapore ladies out there), YOU certainly have the ability, capability and the criteria to be what you wanted. there's no need for u to go into such extreme! can u pls be strong, wake up from yr stupid ideas and do smth tt will not throws women's face? i'm sorry that if one of you read this entry.. if u think i is stupid! u r worst..

i only can say this to you: i'm disgusted!
*gg for lecture! :p *

如果有一天。。。

just a sentiment when i read shan's blog..
wad if..

one day..
i'm gone?
i'm dead?
i hv disappear?

好想玩失踪游戏。。
哈哈。。
开玩笑！ :p

*shan.. i have the same feeling as u right now! it's too overwhelming!! (we r suay)*

museum visit!

lab day again!
hai~~
nvr felt betta! fed up!

went to do NUS science Museum to do lsm assignment!
wahaha.. quite a cool place! didn't know of its existance..
haha.. cool.. *upload pics later*
yep.. tt's it.. cool place.. haha.. really an eyeopener..

for those who are interested..
its below the science library! :)

a fruitless saturday..

have a goal on wad to do for saturday,
BUT
woke up late!
den was so lazy the whole day...

meeting e4 at Serangoon Garden at 5pm..
took a cab down!
AGAIN!
i is crazy!
hai~~
while waiting i was reading my 1102 notes RAH!! labs again! hai~~
den ch and km came! finally! and blur sotong came much much later.. okie la.. ten minutes late!
and km say tt we really gather with ourselves, cos we hv to leave early ma and the GUYS? late as usual lo..

we decide to go cartel and wait for them! haha..
we ordered CHEESECAKE! (have been craving for some time! but not really tt nice! but its okie! i love it..)
we also ordered a chicken salad and seafood marcoroni to share!
*so nice!*

Finally, the guys came! haha..
and when they reached we tell them we are leaving
STRESSIFIED!
haha.. took alot of pics.. *will upload soon*
So fun..
we were still the same! no change!
how i miss the good old days in Zhonghua!
miss u guys!
Hols, we must do smth happening..
i am not gg to plan..
Eileen will.. muahahah!!!

After tt, i left for talentquest!!!
woo! was vv excited actually.
Jessica n Shuhui was competing against Stella n Junbing! haha..
only one winner! hope its either of them..

After joining voices,
i began to went for such performance or competition.
Gradually, i began to have a passion for music(it's growing) haha..
i know more music stuff!
and i am so damn interested to do sounds.. (esp. after emerge! there's so much to do for those who are unaware! :) but it's so damn fun!)

Well, if i really kana rejected by USA.
den i will go for singing lesson,
learn an instruments and learn ya.. learn more music stuff!
music is another therapy to me! hai~~

well well, back to the tq~
GUESS wad!!
Jessica and Shuhui won!!!
was so damn proud!
Voices were vv proud of them too!!
Oh no! i am really impressed! GOOD JOB GIRLS!
and we went to celebrate!

to say the truth, songsong participate.. mayb he can win..
its not tt tq participant not good! they are good lo! damn good..
but if songsong go! he will still have a chance!
'cos his vocal is really GOOD! haha

went to cosy bay! yeah! finally..
haha.. had a long ride! was so damn shu fu!
i wan to dou feng!! haha..
cosy bay was really nice! haha.. but too bad.. we got a large crowd and there's no wind!! i mean not as much as when i pass by..
haha.. will go there again!

back to room!
hai~ plan to study 1102, but then..
devastating news hit me! i dun hav any accomodation for next sem! kana rejected..
super depress sia!
hai~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it's ok, yx say can appeal n wait for waiting list.. really hope i can get! please!!!
haha.. den i blog and chat on msn w yz..
haha.. he's really a ba gong! but thanks..
haha.. 爱尔兰咖啡。。
we must go search.. if not we go YEATS(dunno if it's true not!) !

P.S: 我要加眼泪。。。

一次的冲动

哈哈。。
think of tt day cant make me stop laffing..
was suppose to have a voices meeting on friday and in the end it turn out to be another fruitless one! haha.. gather gather only..
when to munchie again! but i neva eat!
den watch abit of video and we(i and aNqi) decide to go support jessica's n shuhui's practise for saturday's talentquest before gg home.

Can u believe it?
WE WAIT for 151 for 30min! (fed up!)
haha.. but guess wad? when we board the bus, we got a 冲动！
*meant to keep it as a secret but i think i will just divulge it! haha..*

we decide to go bukit panjang(hope i got the place correctly) food centre to have SUPPER!
time: 9pm!
haha.. budden we realise the 2 of us no shiok! so we called up the people who are still w jessica they all! and nobody care about us! saddening!

den i and aNqi decide to be 2 little devil girls!
we decide to propaganda(u can say force) haha.. *okie, i am the evil one, i do the calling, aNqi do the laffing* those who live in the west to join us!

so i got minghui to come down! muahahah..
and yingzheng(he 自己wants to come dwn, we nvr really force) to come down after his gathering! haha.. *he was so late lor.. but no matter wad he will still cum down the la.. lol*

haha.. we eat until so so so so full!! i like the peanut soup the best(dessert)..
cum to think of it.. i tink i will go to the food centre if i got the craving.. i is CRAZY! haha

had such a wonderful supper..
the only sad part is not enuff ppl..
the more the merrier and the more we can eat!
haha.. it's ok! we will have it again!

joke of the night:
moi: u know wad's TGIF? (asking yz)
*moi n aNqi was damn excited to see whether he knows not.. 'cos mh dunno!*
yz: *look confident* it's a computer program file right??? (he say smth like tt)
-_-'''
* yz really study too much.. when he saw our expression, den he try to salvage the situation! and he say another program out!! -_-''' *

haha.. we really had a good laff! wahaha..

okie.. shall not say anymore..
wait he stress!
for those who are still unaware!

TGIF: Thank God It's Friday

《爱尔兰咖啡》

蔡智恒 - 《爱尔兰咖啡》

在933听到一个简略的故事summary.
我就喜欢上这个故事。。
听到了这故事的title就想起颖政的msn nick。
我兴奋的去问他nick 是这么得来的。。

我就很荣幸的得到《爱尔兰咖啡》的original story..
好久没有读小说了，
一拿到故事就不想停下来！

爱尔兰咖啡的。。。

爱尔兰咖啡的浪漫。
爱尔兰咖啡的甜蜜。
爱尔兰咖啡的神秘。
爱尔兰咖啡的思念。
爱尔兰咖啡的爱情。
爱尔兰咖啡的执著。
爱尔兰咖啡得认真。
爱尔兰咖啡的信念。

只是个简简单单的故事就让我想喝爱尔兰咖啡。
是咖啡吗？
还是想体验呢？
好想到台湾走一趟。
去感受爱尔兰咖啡的奇妙。



P.S: 珊, 你一定会喜欢这个故事， msn 时， 记得跟我拿！

gallus gallus

today, queuing up to buy food at science today..
was thinking of what to eat..
and i realise i have eaten every dish in the claypot stall in science!!
my god!

haha..

well, after my abt 1 yr studies in NUS. I'm gg to announce what food i like to eat in NUS's different canteen!

*Science Canteen*
- Claypot Chicken!!
Everytime eat claypot and my favourite is still chicken!! yeah.. nicest liao..
my life rocks!

*business Canteen*
-the chicken rice! (i eat white chicken only wor~)
Everytime also go eat tt! too bad the fried fish bee hoon close liao.. if not can fight!

*engine canteen*
- indo chicken meal set
dun go there often and what i have eaten so far tt makes me feel that is the nicest is the indonesian stall.. chicken drum super duper big!

*Arts Canteen*
-fried fish bee hoon
haha.. recently my favourite.. last time eat claypot, also eat until finish but dun really fancy! but Arts canteen is the best! for the food la! but hai~ still okie.. can u understand the food that NUS students had been eating ba~

*PGP non air-con canteen*
-Nasi Lemak
not really nasi lemak but is rice and u can choose the sides to go with it..
and i like their black pepper/lemon/satay chicken!! (you can choose the sause! the chicky is the best!)

Conclusion: i like gallus gallus! all the dish got gallus galus.. haha.. wad's gallus gallus?? (ask my cute bio teacher!)

if u got nice food in NUS tt u think is worth trying.. tell me..
i and wy desperate liao..
gg to NUH eat alr..
we are only year 1..
i dun want to be sick of NUH too.. haha...

marketing presentation

was like working like mad for marketing and my 1102..
fed up with java..
haha.. but i have to live with it for 4 years so..
我只好任命 ：（

haha.. today had my marketing presntation.. was so damn tired and i am suppose to be the games IC for our ppt! scare cant perform well enuff (my highess la.. haha.. ). Well, my part was easy! so i got tru it quite breezely..

well, want to comment on my marketing presentation!
was vv proud of it!
truly proud! *clap clap*
as in before the presentaion, i feel that wad we have research and write in our report is smth that is good. however, we still do have worries whether the points are correct not. Ceteris paribus, if it's correct, i really feel tt it is an excellent effort and excellent work done. Especially, the report that part which km wrote. It's not easy to write out 12 pages full of words and scenarios just by the few points that we have thought of. *clap clap* Oh ya, not forgetting shan's idea of doing the mini-EVM for our class.. Hard work sia~ has to make so many bags! :) *i like it alot* I really feel that we did a good presentation!
Comparing to the previous grp, ours are more vibrant and there are more class participation! And we are more hip! haha.. (i dun wan to b hip auntie~)
I shall not say we are the best group but i am vv happy with the results that the tutor had gave for the presentation.. All we left is the report which i truly feel that is nuttin to worry abt!

Marks for presentation *hope i remember correctly*:
Clarity: 8.5marks
Content: 9.5marks
Grp work: 9.5 marks

i think still got one more.. but i forgot..
was so proud leh..
*however, say not be too complacent! scarly the rest of the groups get these marks too?*

oh yah.. we wore pink today.. all of us! including sicky MY! haha..
yeah.. tot pink is smth tt we can tell the tutor tt we r having an informal and hippy dress code! but he dun seems to notice! WHY??
so many ppl wear pink today lo! not i want to say!
wahaha.. but we got declare that we are wearing pink as a dress code!

was proud, damn proud! jiayou!
*give a pat on yr shoulders!*

just 1 more mth..

[- ai zai, 拼了！ -] :p

庆功宴

my sat so happening wor~
after my dinner i went to join voices' frens for our 庆功宴。
was sad that cant join them for steamboat..
oh well..

叔叔was nice to drop me off at somerset!
haha.. tot he drop me at farrer park only!
yeah.. walk over to cineleisure and wait for the rest.
was doing mkting ppt at rocky master while waiting for anqi to join me!
the rest was late..
cant bear to leave the tables i think! haha..

well, we decide to have ktv tru'out the night! happening wor!!
haha.. we booked 11pm room and we plan to sing till 6am!

yz told me tt there's 6 cars gg to marina! wow~ 6 sia~ and only like 20 ppl.
make me want to go 飘移！
budden not racing car.. i wan to 飘wad移。
i am gg crazy!

haha.. ktv was so damn fun!
a vv unusual ktv session i have attended.
the songs tt we sing is those that we will not normally sing when we go ktv..
of course, we also choose those songs tt we want to sing BADLY la..
but songs tt alvin, yx, songsong choose was really damn farnie!
so high and stupid..
make us all cant stop laffing at 4 am..
haha.. was not tired at all.. was quite amazed by myself!

and i was really damn impressed by songsong's n yingzheng's vocal..
2 vv diffrent style..
but both was so damn good..
not forgetting huili's also..
her's ah..
没话讲！！good ah..

had a wonderful day!!

and by the time i reach pgp..
haha.. the sun slowly rise from the sky!
too bad cant see the sun rise!
slept at 7plus!!
argh.. work is never ending..

*i am truly blessed!*

为什么当初的选择不是你?

hai~
during the family dinner..
大人们总是会谈起孩子们的学业...
and they 谈起我的..

ask me how's sch..
i 冷笑!
they ask me to jiayou..
i 冷笑!
den they say not to worry.. after 毕业 go overseas study further..
i 冷笑!
and then..
my father say go china or australia..
我傻眼!! (he plan liao)
aust: accounting
china: dunno study wad..
den he and my auntie vv fascinated.. tok and tok and tok..
tok abt the rental of rooms la..
expenses la..
course la..
我傻眼!!

den i sian diao..

为什么我就不大胆的一点告诉他我要读 hospitality..
(actually, he knows.. he even look at the brochure.. budden NUS acceptance form arrives..)
为什么不要坚持?
为什么不勇敢?

这样就不用受 java 的气!
烦!

*我是个没用的小孩*

家庭聚餐 <两个令我敬佩的人>

have a dinner with my paternal sid family..
abit stress cos din know its celebrating my grandma bday..
*no one told me lo.. just say dinner, and say wad my cousin gg back to australia like wan to migrate.. peng! den on sat.. den realise is grandma bday!!!!!*
it's always like tt.. had been asking when's the dinner and stuff.. den my mum will ask me to ask my dad.. den i have to specially call and know the info.. 很难沟通mea??
not the first time..
不是不知道就是没有告诉我and expect me to be there! thanks alot! thanks!!
hai.. and i n fatty is like cum from a weird family..
shall not tok abt it.. fed up!

Well, dinner was good! eat at new park hotel.. somewhere in serangoon road.. pa was saying "mumble park hotel" and i tot we were gg to goodwood park hotel! *made me wear so nice* den realise i heard wrongly.. its an ok hotel.. but i always trust my 姑妈and 姑丈taste.. will choose good food.. and yep.. had a wonderful dinner.. is cantonese ala carte buffet.. eat until i gg to burst.. actually, was quite sad tt i had eaten a late lunch.. i was so full lo.. after a few dish! haha..

during dinner, i overheard some conversation by the adults!
smth abt recording my 姑丈on tv..
was vv kpo den i decide to listen attentively but was looking as tho tt i am busy eating.. *i am gd at acting innocent!*

well, realise tt the late Sir Rajaratnam was actually (fren/colleague/boss/partners??? dunno which one.. but they got relations la) of my uncle! and he was interviewed on tv. was so damn impressed..

*prelude: my 姑丈 was someone of a high status i think.. but nvr really know wad he does. i know is business la.. den my 姑妈 is a HOD of chinese in tanjong katong sch.. (if i am not wrong). den all their children is ppl of high status in their respective field of work.. i was so 羡慕of their family la.. my 姑丈 and 姑妈 was always so loving! and their children were all so happy too (not forgetting their successfulness).. their family give me a feeling of a vv 温暖的家.. i am always looking up to my 姑丈 and 姑妈. i like them to cum to my house.. they are vv nice ppl.. always caring for me.. and always so 疼我.. sometimes i wished they were my parents.. (i'm not referring tt my parents dun care for me.. it's just tt i like their family.. would like to be part of it)*

okie back..
den while i was so fascinated by my uncle.. my father stunned me.
my another auntie actually asked my father when he is free to give tips to her parents to buy stocks. -_-"
den i begin to think back of the stories tt my mum told me when i was small..
my father's family was actually vv poor when they came to singapore and my grandpa died in singapore when my father was vv young! *therefore, my father work his way up!* all i could remember tt my father work as a waiter, cook, selling watch or repairing watch and finally.. accounting!! wah seh.. poor thing ah.. work so hard.. and finally became what he is..
was really impressed.. however, he work so hard just to give us a better life does not mean that that he is really providing wad we really wan! *ok.. wad i wan!*
fed up fed up fed up.. *is it my problem or yrs?* it's mine! argh.. sian..
so many problems at hm!! is a norm man! i wan to hide in pgp forever!! *i'm sorry, this entry abit sucky*

however, no matter wad.. i am still vv proud of u and was vv impressed by wad u to the family(in certain aspects). was also vv impressed by my 姑丈. really wad a man wants for, isn't it? haha..

was vv impressed.. and on saturday.. i really 大跌眼镜!!

肥肥的生日

wah.. was so stress when i look into the calendar tt 肥肥's bday is on Sunday! was so stressed 'cos he waiting for so long liao.. den i went hm he told me the money he hide is discovered by his dear mother.. den i stressed for him.. he was sad..
but serve him right! nvr do hmk.. always play and play.. Primary 6 liao.. still tot he is a pro in studies when in actual fact he is not tt pro..
比我pro la..
i think his money was being discovered when my desktop at home was being dismantled!! i think got 40 bucks lea.. wahaha.. den he tell me..
*sorry bro.. cant help much! 你老姐我也有经济困难！ however, see him so sad.. i decide to be a vv nice sister! i decide to treat him go makan!
*actually he ask for computer games or archie.. which in fact i dun mind.. cos in the end i also benefit! but.. i know.. if i buy.. i will kana scolding.. so i decide to treat him to swensen! expensive!~

haha.. on sat.. brought him to toa payoh to eat.. we woke up late and had a late lunch.. (was so regret to eat tt dinner.. 'cos in the end i had dinner at 630 with 姑妈 they all. and is defi 好料！

wad we ordered:
1)chicken cutlet
*i forgot the name liao.. tho the name on the menu is more classy but it's smth which i know.. chicky cutlet!*
2) french fries (as a side, while waiting)
3)chicken baked rice
4) topless 5 (5 diff scoops of ice-cream)

was so damn full lo.. cant finish!! and fatty was satisified! darn..
the bill was ok.. and i got discount.. so lucky tt i apply uob card! wahaha..

tt fatty is dead.. when i bday and he got money i will ask it all back from him!

busy busy as a bumble bee

was so busy till i forgot wad i was busy with last week.. peng!
stressified!
however, remember tt i went for stardust finals to support songsong!
damn.. there's one guy..
think his name is Sura or Suresh..
he was damn good.. he sang " when i love you" or smth la..
and i was mesmerised!
he really used his whole heart to sing..
was so damn good.. i tot i was at a concert!
my god.. even the judge was amazed.. and of course he got first! *认真唱歌的男人好有魅力*
okie.. was so proud of song song!
he got second!! woohoo~
his gf must be damn happy!!!

*all so proud of u!*

side note: was so happy that i sold my 1G thumbdrive to MY.. yeah!! i give u cheap cheap wor~
i got extra cash on hand liao~ yeah!

sundays...

hai~~ so freaking busy..
sorry for all the late entries..
just finish lab.. wanna relac!
therefore, felt like use all my might to finish all the entries that i have in mind.. :p

19/3/2006
sunday.. tot it would be a wonderful day..... was so anticipating it! 'cos i am gg to attend Nor's wedding dinner!! (She's my ex-colleague from borders.. nice lady!! :) )
However, when i woke up..
was so fed up..
fed up with a lot of things..
i cant go home man..
fed up!!
really wonder whether it is my problem or not!
was in a freaking bad mood the whole afternoon.. until i reached bugis and i saw Eileen!! (was meeting her to buy present! haha..
actually,when i am out..
i will feel better!! oh well...

well, we began to think wad to buy for NOR! she's a practical person! so must get smth practical! haha.. was thinking of buying a sexy lingerie for her! budden.. due to our tight budget.. we got smth else! we got a vv cute photo frame. so she can put her husband photo, her photo and her two children!! (btw, tt's her 2nd marraige!)

haha.. reached her place. tot is those Malay weddings where got alot of ppl and music but her void deck got no ppl. so decide to go up her house! realise that there's alot of ppl and a small buffet! it's all her relatives..
Nor says cos is second wedding so she dun wan to make it so happening.. both of them happy can liao~ so sweet~ and Nor was so beautiful!!

the food was so damn nice.. tho very hot.. i and eileen finish the whole jug of water that nor brought for us.. she and her hubby laff at us.. so hot but we still want to eat.. damn freaking nice.. oh no.. i hungry le! haha.. :p

well.. i realise tt her hubby is not the bf tt i always see when i was working.. (tell u tt bf of her tt time was so not so stable lo.. as in defi cannot give her a home la.. this is how i feel no offence..) however, after seeing her husband just for the first time.. i definitely can tell u that he is a dependable sort of guy.. well, u cant foresee.. but when compare to the previous one.. he defi is better! haha..

and NOR found a job at jurong island.. working near hubby.. SO SWEET~~
all the best to you NOR!!


<-evening->
left Nor's place quite late.. cos we tok for quite some time!
really had a wonderful time and know tt she is so happy now!! :)
realise tt i haben bought flowers for wy concert.. was so stressed up.. called up so many ppl where to get flowers near nus. And i decide to go NUH to get for her!
wahh.. my life is saddening if u happen to know me!
NUH florist closed liao.. den i bring my sadness to UCC to meet MY..
so sad lo.. nvr get her any things..

UCC was really grand!! really.. haha.. but the theatre tt we went in was rather small..
was flipping tru the program booklet..
den my sadness double!!!
wingyen was the only undergraduate tt perform lo!! i was so damn proud of her! den i and MY stress nvr get anything for her 'cos we feel tt it is smth tt is vv worth mentioning!! oh my..
*GIRL, we r all so proud of you!*

well, tt concert was wonderful! it showcase the Xin Yun Quintet, Sur Shringar and KR harmonica of KENT RIDGE RESEMBLES!! was so nice!! i like the harmonica one.. the japan prof was so.. AMAZING!!
haha.. i was so damn amazed by wingyan too.. her "wan gong" i really think is good.. i always remember tt my chinese orchestra teacher always scold my yang qin fren abt the "wan gong" and i am always so amazed by his skills.. haha..
oh yah.. this concert brings back alot of memories for me and MY.. haha.. MY say he nearly cry for one song! *peng* 没有这么感人咯* haha.. he think of his past ba.. his er hu!! haha..
i play 柳琴 k.. tho not vv pro! haha.. *really bring backs alot of memories!* dunno still remember how to play not!

argh.. wanna learn smth! was so proud of wy and so jealous that she knows what she is good at..
i am still searching!!!

*pls make my life better*

the day arrives and ends with a victory

Friday, 17/3/2006

the day finally arrived.. slept on the sofa at clubroom and woke up at 8! was still in a daze and didn't know that yz has come! wah.. and louis and alvin is still working on the props.. but it is done.. just touch up! was so impress with them! i was like a pig!! cannot take it! they work so hard and i only sleep!

Well, lucky yz cum.. he took over the driving and the carrying so alvin and louis will not be so shag.. and wad am i doing.. look after the things in clubroom lo.. *they say i like princess, just sit n relac* -_-"" haha.. finally.. was so happy that they let me it behind the lorry!! woohoo~~ was waiting for it vv long le! 'cos behind put alot of props that is painstakingly done by louis and alvin! yz drive carefully! haha.. dun have the shiok feeling.. plus nus got a lot humps.. cant expect him to go fast too!

was moving arnd nus and louis realise that he had actually booked the theatre at 10 instead of 9.. haha.. so we decide to go back and have breakfast! i got porridge.. nice porridge.. i like!! but no appetite, eat a few mouth den never eat le~ ('cos i began to get busy and the porridge is nowhere to be seen!) *not the first time* argh! haha.. tt day i am really a princess sia~ get to sleep on sofa, get to rest, no need to anything and got chauffer back to pgp to bath! louis and alvin is still working on the props lo.. it's only lunch break den yz send them back to bath! wah.. stress! *clap clap*

after lunch we have our full dress rehearsal! wah.. stress.. i forgot my lines! and i stutter!! i nearly die! dance step also not very sure! i never smile while dancing! den the make-up artists came! no one is available to do make-up! y? 'cos everybody has a role at different scene! den we do rehearse until 6 and zao ru was like gg to kill us all.. 630pm the doors open.. actors n actress not ready, bags not cleared, props in a mess. And my lead still dun have make-up.. huili was so super stress.. actually i was too.. she in a daze! i was in a trance! i was so freaking stress. 'cos i suddenly feel so lost. ppl will be streaming in in 30 mins time and the performance will start at 7pm.. my caterer and my frens are all contacting me. My huili needs me, my make-up artist is not vv shuang with the arrangement, my props, my letters! all in a mess! nearly cannot breathe and decide to die!!

(feel that i am quite useless sometimes. my tolerance for stress is really super duper low! and at crucial time i cant keep a clear mind of wad to do. i think that's wad differentiate me from others ba. in uni, all the ppl are capable! very somemore.. i feel like an ikan bilis swimming in a big ocean! wanna change the old me but i did not.. dunno how will i survive as the years pass by.. i need to take control of myself! be independent.. dun expect myself to "nua" there and ppl will come and help me! it's always been like tt and therefore i cant change! shit! this is no good!)

well well, at 615 like tt i packed huili and my stuff ready! my props are ready, my letters are ready.. and i really feel that i am preparing for doom. While huili is doing her hair-do and practising her song. i decide to go to the reception, hope to see familiar faces(actually got mix feelings of gg to the reception, 'cos i really vv stress! dun wan my frens to see tt) BUT caterer call and i have to be there.. was really stressed up.. lucky yz was there and he helped me alot.. "nua" again! sianZ.. the food was not bad.. as in not vv dsgusting.. $1.50 per pax.. quite satisfied..

well, i was actually stunned by the long queue outside the reception. People was queuing to take their tickets and some were trying out their luck to buy tickets! guess wad!! we were sold out.. totally sold out!!! my god! was so damn happy! actually tickets were sold out long ago but suddenly there's some tickets returned. 好的开始是好的！ saw hwa hwa outside.. he crap with me but i too damn stress to entertain him.. but seeing him made me feel better. he always do stupid things to make me laff.. haha.. was so glad he cum.. (last minute wor~) *thanks for the support boi~* [oh ya.. his gf is zhen ru, nus' belle sia!]

<-the starting of the show->
could hear all the noise outside the curtains.. backstage was super quiet for the first time out of all the rehearsal.. why? we were damn stress! *we all hope we will not make mistake* i was frantic but i heard an inner voice to tell me calm down. it will be over in ten minutes. i dunno where i get the courage all of a sudden? it is not me. i swear! i know myself.. it's really not me.. i dunno wad gives me the courage. the confidence. Have i mature? or is it tru the care and support that i have received and i dun wan to let them down? or is just an outburst?

the scene tat i have the most part was the most stressful one.. i need to dance and read a damn ong letter! was freaking scare when the music starts! den i remember this sentence: "if u r scare.. just look front.. at a wall or smth.. dun look at faces and you wun feel stress!" *and i did* i did not smile during the dance.. tt's wad my fren say.. tho i am forcing a smile tru out the dance!
was part! i dance wrongly! super peiseh~~~ cant help it~ i felt like boxing myself!!
was actually amazed that my letter was good and the audience was listening and they response!!!! *smirks* haha.. was vv happy..

(btw.. alot of our scenes was supposed to be romantic n sweet or serious, but our dear audiences laff at every little part! haha.. and minghui heard someone saying after the show this is a 高笑篇 -_-"" was vv proud of everyone!!)

the whole performance was super good.. we felt good about it.. AND WAS REALLY GOOD!

after the finale! we were all so super duper HIGH!! began to do all the photo-takings and all.. haha.. was so damn happy!!
http://www.comp.nus.edu.sg/~huangjin/Emerge2006/
this is the link to the videos and photos that we have done on tt day!! do go and see if interested!
*wonderful memories* *smile*

haha.. to end off..
the whole gang went to somewhere in the west to eat pratas!! the juniors dun want fongseng so we went somewhere out of school. BUT!! we end up in some places which is similar to fongseng! *laff out louds*
oh ya.. we went on lorry! cos not much cars on the road liao.. and yz was like speeding abit(he is carrying with him like 10 over ppl behind the lorry) ! haha.. but i was vv shuang!! was hoping the trip to there would be longer! but.. haha.. the place was actually quite near la..

*the above mentioned is just wad i have gone tru*
*the followings are my random thots abt the whole production*

well, was vv blessed that i am in this production. REALLY.. vv blessed n felt vv fortunate.
it helps me to grow and mature as the event is drawing near. I had better control of myself. more importantly, i got to know this bunch of wonderful frens in my course of nus life! people say that it is usually hard working with ppl. However, we never did have any major problems! was so blessed to know you guys! **really**
haha.. the bond we carry! it is really unbelievable. I know! tt's becos we want emerge to be successful! the tiredness n the sweat that we have gone tru together will always be a big part of our life!
*was really blessed and happy! dunno wad to say.. haha.. just wanna say...*
"Thank you, thank you and thank you!"

-act. got a lot of tots, but i was so freaking busy that this entry was put on hold for so long and made me forgot i want to say!-

well, know everybody miss emerge! me too.. well, let's wait for the next emerge! we have set the standard! we will do a better one next yr!!
*love ya lotz*

days to emerge...

tuesday, 14/3/2005

was having lesson till 6pm today..
however, guess wad skip my lectures!! gem and my bio.. dun wan to skip de but no choice! my lab!! not 100marks lea.. is 62.5marks! fed up!! weijie helped me debugged till like 3. den is still the same! feel so shy about it.. haha.. *thanks boi~* got rehearsal for dance but decide to go clubroom.. was wanting to jam the song 我不难过！ but everybody was so busy den i decide to do other things. was panicky alr.. still got a few days to emerge! can u imagine it.. stressified.. and we haben learn finish our dance~ meant to have rehearsal but we could not book the room.. so our dear boss went round apologizing to the rest that rehearsal is cancelled. And we dancers used the night to learnt finish our dance~ and we did it! tho still not vv confident...
at night.. saw the dance clip tt we dance at lt3.. i and huili nearly die!! haha.. we feel tt we dance until very farnie! haha..

tuesday was still ok for me! not vv stress up..
beginning to feel tired as days passes.. not energetic.. will tend to stone.. think i am too excited tt the day is coming...


Wednesday, 15/3/2006
wah.. today, i am the ultimate of the ultimate!!!!! wan to be a good girl and listen to my lecture!! but i cant take it.. was damn tired.. woke up early for my 8am tutorial.. den rush to 1102 lecture! *must be wondering why rush??*

here goes the story.. on one fateful wednesday, after my marketing tutorial from business, i, mingyang n chinghui decide to buy breakfast to my 1102 lecture. cos 4 hrs lecture straight i scare i cannot tahan.. so ah.. i happily go buy.. late abit also nvr mind! but...

*me and ch carrying the food in, only soya bean and a bun (mingyang go toilet)*
lecturer: girl, why so late (time, 1025pm, late 25 min)
*btw, not only me lo.. i am the first one la.. but behind me is flood of ppl, dunno why always kana this type of shit*
me: *give innocent look* ==> no use wor!! ANGRY!
lecturer: wad lesson u have before this???
me: *no choice, he look at me and ask.. so have to entertain him*
business module, marketing tutorial
lecturer: but why so late? wad time yr tutor let you off?
me: 10am
lecturer: u should tell the tutor that you had a lecture at 10 and the rules is that u had to leave the tutorial at 945am..
*wtf, aim me and tell me all this shit.. i am not the only person tt is so so so so so late*
me: OK!
lecturer: blah blah.. wad's yr tutor name? if u cannot tell him to release u on time, tell me i will email him to let him off!!
*stunner man*

i want to tell him: Sir, your tutorial always release us late.. u r also violatin the rule.. can you release me earlier next time?
budden i sula..
so i reply......
me: ok..
*he continue to nag awhile den he go one teaching.. *
after 5 mins.. ppl slowly flowing in
he dun give a damn.. continue teaching.. hey.. why he dun want to scold the rest but me.. in front of the lecture room somemore! *roar*

got a conclusion.. he not happy i came in late with food! 'cos he hungry he cannot eat.. i dun care abt him i eat my breakfast while listening to his nonsense.. he always tok nonsense.. make me so tired and fell asleep!

oh yah.. continue. rush to lecture and to realise its not him teaching.. wah.. nvr buy food eat..
but in the end.. i am so freaking tired that i slept tru den went for lunch with the gang and den go tru the same torture again with tulika! argh.. she will get high with the stuff herself when no one realy understand a shit.. den finally.. my bio lab..
chop chop finish my stuff and rush to yih! need to help out with the program booklet.. cant let louis do all alone.. he alr gg bonkus!
we are like working for production line!
really.. diff ppl got diff role.. and with the help of the seniors..
We are done with the booklet.. so happy!

the rehearsal was stressful.. haha.. anqi need to go but she just cant relac on the scenes.. so she keep on asking huili n benson to do over n over again.. they are gg tru scene 10 n i am in it.. i tot i'm a minor role.. but then i realise anqi wan the effect of me diao-ing benson is not there.. and i had to practise diao-ing him.. so stressful.. i gt a feeling anqi give up on my diao-ing..

rehearsal was not bad.. its the last one.. and the things that anqi want the leads to refine on is being conveyed.. anqi den happily went hm to study... she ah.. always so stress up! *girl, u r the best* program booklets are done! rehearsal was 七七八八。 everyone was tired but we all have this excited feeling tt emerge will be here in 2 days time. I choose to go home.. take the long 147.. dunno why travel all the way hm.. (was suppose to meet eileen on thurs to pass her tickets but our tickets were so in demand that we dun have enough..) dun feel like explaining to mum y not gg back so decide to go hm.. reach house at about 12 plus.. tired!! hungry!!
after my supper.. (fattening) i began to work like mad again. need to comfirm stuffs about fridays, need to make decidion on the shoes, worried about friday, asking for dance practise.. blah blah.. and in the end.. i help louis do like 20 emails.. and i konked out! felt so bad!
cannot take it.. head is alr spinning ( my head like to do stunts nowadays!)

Thursday 16/3/2006
took cab down to school.. was freaking tired and i was late too.. i managed to do more emails in the morning and den went down to clubroom. decide to skip my 1104 tutorial.. was wondering.. will i get my attendance marks? stress.. no time to think of that.. was a hectic day.. the afternoon pass by slowly.. den we began to stress about wad to decorate for the lecture theatre.. We decide to go down to art fren in the end and see look see look and of course to buy dancing shoes for tmr. we went at about 4 and got bak at arnd 7 plus to 8.. was so tired.. cannot take it.. mayb is becos anqi and alvin's voice make me vv shag.. haha.. tell u all ah.. they tok vv wen rou-ly.. n i began to feel tired.. haha.. guess they are vv tired too!! went back to club room.. the band is practising alr! and the rest are hungry.. (bought dinner for them) and they are waiting for us to be back!!
poor dancers, we had to practise first before we eat or else we will have stomachache! so we endure our hunger and go for our dance! we r now ok with the steps.. is just tt we need another practise to fine tuned it.. alvin was vv encouraging tru'out the dance! make me feel vv good. i'm scare tt tmr i will make a blunder on stage tmr!
well, have our dinner and i continue do my email.. the band got nothing to do and we decide to jam!! *woot* i love jamming! haha.. it's been a long time since i jam! most of the ppl went back home at arnd 10 plus. In the clubroom, left me and alvin only.. we r waiting for boss to drive his lorry back so we can make our props NICER! (tell u ah.. we paid good money for our props and all we get is shit.. irritating sia~~~)
so tru'out the night, louis n alvin r pia-ing to do the props finish by tmr while i was doing the email thingy! (felt so bad.. nvr help out alot.. they worked real hard! take out nails, hammer back the nails, paint, glued!! and alvin got a long splinter into his fingers) STRESS!!! i am like vv redundant lo.. idoitic me..
at 3 am went to buy supper for them.. bought myself a bag of choz! my favourite choz w raisins. feel so happy!! reallly, i am vv happy.. and i bought cup noodles for them.. we rest awhile and eat our noodles.. tell u they are vv hungry lo.. BOth of them are tired and hungry... or i can do is to eat n do hotmails n mayb give them 精神上的支持！
budden.. i cannot take it anymore at arnd 4plus and declare i wan to sleep.. i am so encouraging sia~~ n my mail was not done yet! alvin n louis are nice.. i can sense tt they try to keep their volume down as low as possible while i was sleeping.. was damn touched and so damn guilty! :p
*alvin n louis are the best! *

first few photos

argh.. it's so long tt i blogged!! emerge finally over.. was so sad that is over..
i am like missing someone so intensifying tt i cant take it anymore!
but..
i know..
i am not the only one.. :p

okie.. wan to say so many things for this week but i dun have time!
now.. i have time.. i wan to write it all down before i REALLY forgot!

upload my pics first.. after getting the cam on monday.. i decide to take pics!!

wahaha.. my rm is in a mess.. no time to pack.. cannot take it.. show u how how it looks like.. sleep with the mess, live with the mess!! haha.. when i free den pack ba~ see the new formation of my room? tt's how it looks like when i shift my bed!


*photos uploaded at a later time*

*photos uploaded at a later time*


well, monday was a stressful day! lab is due on tuesday.. however, i dun care! i wan to buy camera! so went to pennisular to buy one! reach room at 10 plus.. haha.. need to rush out my lab.. and this stupid error keep cuming out.. cant solve! idoit! decide to dance and let experts to see the prob on tues! wahaha.. the result is not tt good! sianZZZ~~~~~

*photo uploaded at a later time*

in the end.. i began to practise the dance! argh..
alvin tok to me on msn.. tot he is vv proud of me practising dance(i'm the worst student sia~) budden...

alvin: eh.. practising dance ah..
moi~ : yep yep hee~~
moi~: but pgp room too small lea.. cant really dance, will knock things down..
*tot he will say i hardworking or tmr den practise*
den he say,
alvin: u sure is the room not? or the problem lies with you......

wah.. haha.. i want to run over to kent ridge and box him! haha.. i know he joking la.. he's always so farnie!! *举手，我要去海边！！*

幸福的味道III

haha.. not to thank anyone..
but would like to say tt yesterday.. i had such a wonderful dinner!! i am so 满足!!
满足满足满足满足满足满足满足!!!
haha.. 我终于吃了我的温暖牌饭 !

i miss hm cook food! those zhi cha! the rice and stuff!!
we celebrate wingyan bday by eatinf zhi cha.. i was happier than her.. can u believe it?? i eat so much!! everybody was stress!! but i am god damn hungry..
i love food!!

Well, today!! i bought my camera!! love it lotZ..
however, damn ex.. and its not black! but its still stylo milo!
situ told me got black one.. den i decide to box myself.. but even tt is so.. i cant possibly buy it! 'cos i no money!! need to find a rich guy! haha..
this is how my cam looks like..
freaking excited! my memories will not be lost!

幸福的味道 II

haha.. i really forgot 2 person..
well.. he say he will shy if i say his name but i still want to share.. must fair fair ma..
I want to thank

Weiquan: haha.. u say u will shy.. dun care.. wanna thank you!! okie. well, thanks for all the help u have given. And the encouragement n support!! if cannot find ppl come on friday den just buy tix for a girl la.. or come alone.. haha.. ask tom go with u~~

Next,

Don: well well, u ah.. have been helping me since i know u.. haha.. i shy. and u always use yr authority to help me.. vv shy.. thanks!! tho u r in Germany but u still help me around.. thanks! After my event, u wun see me so late le.. haha.. i will go sleep! thanks for the encouragement too! buy choz for me!! u gg rome right! get me the pics! get me the air! get me the sunshine! y not give me the airtics!! haha.. hope to see u next sem in biz!!

*6 days to emerge*

幸福的味道

我是幸福的， 我真的真的是幸福的。 felt so loved by everyone! *thanks*

Cant sleep yesterday, and someone just woke up so we chat on msn while i am watching show... tt ah soh told me tt for the coming week, we need lots of encouragement from each each other so we will not break down! it's a stressful week!! *thanks for all ya encouragements*

well well, i really think tt he make sense! 'cos i feel tt too..
then after a deep long sleep, when i woke up, think of the past week, i felt so loved!! i was so loved by everyone! 我是幸福的。我好感动哦!

Therefore, i decide to give credits to those who had been helping me arnd, supporting me and also care about me! *smileZ*

Who shall i go first??
okie.. start with SOC!
Tat: i wan to thank Tat for all his help for our publicity and my schoolwork, u r so busy but u still offered to help. And for the guidance for my labs and schwork!! :) tho my results are not so wonderful but i will work hard de!

Mingyang: You neber contribute alot. haha.. (joking la..) well, thanks for the help in schoolwork and yr jokes everyday really brightens up my day! *if u consider my 姐妹 den u really makes my day great!*

Wingyan: haha.. thanks for supporting me and jio me stay back study together but i always pang sei u! u must jiayou wor~ and yr "dimness" really makes me luff! we r a riot man!! oh yah.. HAPPY BirtHday!! we must get out of tat's DIM's list! make him the honourable student rather than us!

Situ: Well, i wan to thank you thank you and thank you. We dun really meet up this sem but you help me do so many publicity. thanks! *感动* i wan to say wad have he done, he ah.. help me publicise in his blog and in NUSSU forum. And he coming to support me! 谢谢! u r such a nice pal.. we will take operating systems togethrer! :)

weijie: thanks for putting it in the grass forum tho i know nobody really goes there! but.. is the tot that count! i am so touched when i saw the email! thanks!! try to make it k!
the rest of the grass ppl: must come and support me wor~~ nice to study with u all~

Ct: hey hey, thanks for the publicising and the support ya! oh yah.. most importantly, the help in my school work.. THANKS!!!

My 姐妹s:
tt would include ss, ch and km. Thanks for the encouragement and supports! Sorry cant make time to go out with u all and i'm sorry for the bad temper tt i have sometimes! well, thanks for the publicity that u had made also!! must jio more ppl come wor~ we will go out after my production!!

My e4's:
argh!! uber touched when u all say u will be coming when i asked! i tot u all dun wanna come la.. and for the guys! u all have NS and still need to rush dwn! thanks thanks! 我不会让你们失望的. when's our next gathering?? miss u all lotZ and was really thankful for the birthday celebration that u all gave(in case i nvr thank u all.. haha..) time spent with u guys were never boring! we are also so happening, chatty and so CHILDISH!!

My 姐妹's in SR:
wah.. u all having exams but still make effort to come down. i can feel the encouragement u all gave! also, it's ok if u all really cant make it! i know u all will always be there for me! *miss u all lotZ, must go out ah.. after our exams!! maybe we could go overseas! we shall see how*

My mother:
thanks for calling me every night to ask me to eat proper meal.. tho the truth is otherwise! haha.. will go home soon!! after my emerge!

Now i shall come to the gang that give me lotz of support from the very start of emerge!!!!!
i present to u, emerge2006 main comm n those who had been helping out for the emerge!
*the list is long! bear with me!!*

Boss louis: Thanks for the support that u have gave!! u are a wonderful boss! but i feel that u r too stress up yrself! well, yesterday, u give credits to me, now, i wan to give credits to u! i am not the only one tt is working very hard, YOU ARE!! u are always doing the small nitty gritty things and always do the stuff which u entrust to us! your stress level for this week is definitely higher than any of us! no doubt about it, 'cos u r the PD. Dun be too stress up about friday.. in my eyes, Emerge2006 is already a success. Feel that u cannot breathe, just give us some work to do.. We can share the load! just one more week! one more! 加油!

Dance teacher aka A.PD, Alvin: argh.. want to say sorry for the dance tt i have given u! i promise i will do my best. will practise and give u a good dance! thanks for all the patience u have gave for this slow student! u dun overwork yrself too.. i like yr dance and thanks for the encouragement u gave to all dancers! you are so farnie and always make me laff!! n thanks for the help to help me find the labs tt u had previously done!! cant thank enuff!! 谢谢!

Dancers(stella, jessica, shuhui,anqi,huili): Thanks for the guidance that u all have given me! also, dun overwork yrself! esp anqi, poor girl! 我们会加油的! the late nights in AS7 really is memorable and also 痛苦 but we will perform a good one on friday itself so tt Minghui(the director in the show) will not say tt we dance not good! 加油!

Play director Anqi: wah.. this girl ah.. so 可怜. had been working vv hard from the beginning to the end.. her stress is nvr ending.. the tiredness in her face is something tt i can see it growing when the performance is drawing near! dun stress up yrself! u r doing vv good alr! we are all so proud of u.. feeling stress?? just tell me, i cant help much but at least mayb a listening ear or an analysist.. :) 我们会加油的! remember our plans after emerge? yep! you will be yr super hero girl. u can do it! i know u will! 'cos u are one yrself! i'm proud of u!

Huili (secretary,treasurer) leading actress: this girl, is always giving me tips on wad to do and wad we can do on stage so that i can perform better and she can do her best too. Out of the 14 scenes she had to act 13 scenes.. can u feel her stress.. well i can! she is always thinking of how to make it a better show! 鼓掌! she needs to be pamper, need to be loved, need to be cared for this week! well, i am appointed as her personal assisstant! i will do my best to take care of ya! u have to tk care also.. btw, my lead is alr sick.. so poor thing right! i'm so glad everyone is caring and loving her.. u will do well girl. Dun stress up yrself and drink lotz of water to make yr voice better!! need anything.. just tell me! i am yr P.A!

Songsong, male lead: yr singing is so wonderful! thanks for coming down on publicity everyday and sing consecutively.. yr performance was so wonderful.. draw lots of crowd! am so proud of u! good luck for stardust! and u are a wonderful male lead too! thanks for all the help! and the stupid things that u do with me during rehearsal. Thanks for making my day great!

William keyboardist n prop manager: Thanks for the wonderful music tt u had played.. and the help u gave on publicity.. know u are stress! dun be too stress k!!

Drummer minghui: Hey, thanks! thanks for the help u have given. especially the nitty gritty kind..*感动* so peiseh.. haha.. also, thanks for the help u have given me for publicity n the advice u had given me for cameras! thanks! you must jiayou too!! u will be damn stressed up when u do the video editing! dun be too stress tho it is wad u are good at! i wan to say yr skills is really GOOD! :)

Raymond, the everything: hey, i want to thank you for the nitty gritty things too.. also, for publicity! always make u give yr tuesday to me! shy! thanks for all the help and the concern u had given! 我会加油的,你也要! also, thanks for yr encouragement.. *感动* if dun have the band members, i think i will breakdown! :)

yingzheng the ah soh! : opps.. so u r the ah soh i have been saying.. ok la.. i know u are not ah soh, the nags are all concerns! i know.. i just want to tease u! Thanks! you are doing vv great for yr sound! i am vv proud of it too.. dun stress yrself up too.. u got so many things tt need to do! so dun tire yrself! 加油for yr bass! must show tat yr 厉害! also i wan to thank u for the publicity! u r so busy yet u are still helping me!! *感动* also, thanks for the lifts and breakfast! *感动* okie.. and the suan-ness u give! dun feel like saying this but i tink i need to say.. sometimes the suan-ness do make my day!! PI! haha.. okie.. do consider wad i have been telling u wor~ *CONSIDER* unless yr secondary reason is wad u wanted! so 加油! u can make it de! :)

the seniors:
Thanks for yr guidance and all. Especialy the concerns tt u had gave us. We will make it a wonderful event! Thank you u all!!!

Well, hope i have not forgotten anybody!! 我好感动,好幸福喔!

sian ji puah

Have been so restless lately.
Cant do things with enthusisam! 'm so dead!
haha.. well, decide to blog. that's the only thing i like doing now!
Have not been sleeping well for these few days and i decide to sleep early on fri BUT i and huili was so so so stress up about wad to wear for full dress and we keep change and change! 'cos on saturday is full dress. we need stimulation and timing. So we need to change to see how it goes!
Well, while huili is stressng over wad she is suppose to wear. i decide to do laundry!! *huili came over to stay*
so for the first time, i and huili went dwn to do the laundry! guess wad, when we went to the lift, there was a 大风 which slam the cluster gate before we close it properly.. we tot it was nothing BUT when we came up!! the cluster gate was stuck.. I told huili there's a back door but we need to climb up the stairs. tt back door was usually opened! but on tt day, it's locked!!! wah.. i told u i'm always so cursed! den i call the technician den he say he's at block 10 checking whether all gates are locked not and he will go through each block before he came to block 16(my block). WTF. i nearly scream. Cant he make any sense? i am standed outside.. and how long am i suppose to wait.. they got no brain!! i tell u no brain.. LOW EFFICIENCY, low IQ.. argh.. buay tahan! luckily after waiting at the door for 20 min or so.. someone opened her door to bath and saw the pathetic me! and she helped me opened the door.. freaking gate..
(after tt i went to the playgrnd to bring huili up 'cos i scare she will get caught if she hang arnd with me when the tech came.)
So freaking mad.. well well,for the next few rounds of laundry, i decide to go dwn myself, in case, something like tt happen again.. i still got huili to open the door for me!
We choose and choose the clothes and finally went to slp! *cant say the time tt we went to sleep :p *
haha.. den on sat night.. was so damn tired.. but just could'nt make myself slp.. so decide to 看戏。 tot can see a good romance movie.. BUT the movies tt i watch made no sense.. make me more sian.. argh..

have to think of my 1102 lab.. eeeeeekkkkkkkkkk..

*6 more days to emerge*

full dress

have a full dress today! terribly stress!
seniors were stern but i think tt's the way things need to be done when we r pressing for time. Anqi n huili like super stress..
and me.. i was fiddling arnd..
dance was still bad.. i am stressed.
the letter is too long.. dunno how to express..
i feel like shit today.. dunno why!! hmmm...


感觉好熟悉， 但就是这么想也想不起那熟悉的感觉。。
我看那感觉已不在重要，已不再了！！

*6days to emerge*

at the peak..

finally done with my two test! sianZ.. feel tt the two tests are easy if i got study for it! hai.. this is life! must depend on finals liao..
was so so so so tired.. can u imagine falling asleep during the tests! haha..
lucky nvr sleep tru just doze off for like 5s!
TONIGHT! is the night to sleep and tmr the vicious cycle will run again!
my lab is opened at 4pm like tt so is 1104 results! so fast ah.. morning take the test den can get result! dun wan to fail.. pls.. pls.. pass can le!!!

Tonight, quite happening!! tonight is stardust semi-finals!
kaimei and songsong are in it!
so must wish them good luck to get into finals!
having rehearsalo today so cant support! sorry! but mentally and physically will support u two to get into the finals! 加油！

'm listening to 咸鱼again and again! will put it up in my blog!!

*7 days to emerge*

i am a salted fish!

咸鱼 - 五月天

as listening to my windows media player and i like this song when i am too stressed up! :)
the band is great, the singer is cute and i like his voice! hope u like it too!!

我是一只咸鱼不想承认也不能否认
不要同情我笨又夸我天真还梦想著翻身
咸鱼就算翻身还是只咸鱼输得也诚恳
至少到最後我还有咸鱼不腐烂的自尊
我没有任何天分
我却有梦的天真
我是傻不是蠢
我将会证明用我的一生
我如果有梦有没有错
错过才会更加明白明白坚持是什么
我如果有梦梦要够疯
够疯才能变成英雄
总会有一篇我的传说
我不好也不坏不特别出众我只是敢不同
我的人生就是一错再错错完了再从头
也许放弃掉一些活得更轻松我却不再是我
我不愿一生晒太阳吹风咸鱼也要有梦

有一天有我的天空

作我的英雄在我的天空
我知道你懂知道你会懂

累了

only a few hours left to my doom.
SianZ, both tests cannot make it le la..
was so so damn tired! y cant the test be scheduled after my emerge!
neber mind! i still got finals..
pls gif me some lady luck!
dun fail. pass can le.. tt's wad i hope for. scoring is smth tt i cant do it for today! argh!
tired.. (tt's when i get back to my room.)
-the bed is super tempting-

we will preservere! we can do it! we definitely can!
we are superheroes/superhero girls!

*7 days to emerge*!!!!

busy as a bumble bee

oh god.. i'm so busy! haha.. got so may things due tmr and i am like nowhere!
Well, i will jiayou!
Want to comment on the publicity that we have done!!!! *clap clap**
'm so proud!! publicity was really great. Thanks for all the help and encouragement that you all have given.
would also like to apologise for the sacrifice that you all made *especially the band memebrs*. WAKE up so early just to help me carry all the stuff over to forum and den have to help me set up and skip lesson!! *uber touched* *thanks thanks!!*
Lastly, must thanks khuan tiong and YINGTAT!! thanks for ya car.. must thank Tat 'cos he helped me alot!! n sorry for the mishap! :p dinnerS still on me! (did u see the s?? r u excited? dinners wor~)
tmr got 2 tests, i essay due.. the essay i have wrote is kns.. shit.. am dead.. cannot screwed my 1104 but i think also 凶多吉少！ yeah.. going to 发奋图强 for 1104 le.. just a few more HOURS n i will be done!! 加油！

*8 days more to emerge!!!*

my sunday and monday

haha.. i have lots of stuff waiting for me to do but i still decide to blog. Blogging really helps me to relieve stress, to look back and to thanks those who have been helping me!

*Sunday*
woke up at 12 plus. so damn tired. never practise the dance. and decide to go back school since my bro wants to play game and i cant use any connection. Meeting yt at harbourfront and he send me back to school! *yeah* dun be surprised by his sudden goodness to me, he is near harbourfront so he dun mind giving me a lift! oops, no lar.. u r always so good! 我们是很好的朋友! I was early and i went to make a pair of contacts for emerge! (i need to dance dun want to push my specs everytime i jump, haha.. ) and i walked arnd in safe to see see got cheap and good cameras not. WOW~ i saw a $139 n $199 camera, was wanting to buy it. Luckily, mh ask me to take and see it. And yah.. it sucks, i walked off. Lucky didnt buy! And i went to the carpark to meet tat. When we reach school, school was still as packed. Dun think weekend, everybody go home lor. All the benches were taken. *SIANZ* Nanli (yt's fren) joins us.. and we study study study. Finished my gem proj (the part i am supposed to do) and we went off to eat mac!! (i tell u, i am getting fatter and fatter.)

Haha.. was reading my bio!! i read like for so long.. while doing some liasing with some of the guys about monday transportation of stuff. GOD!~ there's so much to talk about.. and i keep mafan the guys.. feel so shy now!! haha.. den when i finish my bio to do the assignment. Ct told me on msn tt it's no use reading the text. need to search for it online.. *thunderbolt** i nearly faint! i spend so long reading it lar.. luckily, he give me the link and i finished it at 2 like tt.. oh yah.. i shift my bed! and cleans my room and do laundry! I shift my bed so i can see how i dance in the mirror!! after doing the lab, i went off to do 1104 lab, den talk to don on msn.. he's in sweden and still keep track of the time in Singapore. Keep shoo-ing me off to slp. Touch abit on MIPS! dun understand a shit! so.. do a few sums and den decide to konk out cos tmr meeting the guys at clubroom at 9. not nice to be late! haha..

*and i still didnt practise my dance**

~MONDAY~
went over to clubroom. MH and YZ alr there. the resonnance guy whom we are to borrown the mikes and speaker from are still not here. So while the two are still fiddling out how to take out the keyboard, i pack the necessary stuff! YOU KNOW HOW MANY THINGS TO TAKE NOT! lucky got car (khuan Tiong's one) , if not yz and mh will be dying! thanks ah.. for yr help! 辛苦你们了! i was like a vase la.. never carry much stuff! Well, felt bad to make mh miss his class.. time management was something that i'm still not good at. SORRY! well, when 1 pm cums, the seniors came!! and yiting wore the same shirt as me!! i tot she wun wear it again! haha.. the seniors was good man.. they nvr practise and go up and sing. can u imagine that they have fans in nus? haha.. well, if they practise the song.. arent they "tok gong"?? haha.. when for my lab at 230 like tt and went back.. and left the few of the juniors and we dicide to 自high! haha.. have a mini-concert! got to know a lady who became a fans of us! she even ask for songs and offered to help us publicise! *damn touched** oh yah, not to mention radiopulze! thanks yvonne for helping us to publicise! she's real nice. feel abit bad.. never like play radiopulze out. haha.. tmr.. i will try my best yah.. dunno tmr want to go for lesson not.. hai~ pointless lea.. dunno the front part. what's the use of gg there? but if i dun go, i feel bad! shall see how!!
Was suppose to end at 5 but me, raymond, songsong and mh. We began to have mini concert within ourselves! tell u all a secret: when raymond plays the keyboard, he is on ignore mode too.. *peng*
In the night, i went to eat dinner do mips and go back room to blog(which i am doing now lo). den deicde to practise the song i am gg to sing with yz! damn freaking worried! haha.. i think need to minus two! argh!! den read my gem! den learn dance! den research! in other words... no need slp again! wahaha.. I am gg to challenge myself not to sleep!
**so freaking scare for my test** ** got my 1102 test result lo.. fail! haha.. lucky not zero!** but yt is worried! hmm.. can see lar.. but i am fine! decide to engage him as tutor. but he is expensive! SIANZ!

wahaha.. gg to practise le.. writing off! but before i go!
I WANT TO SHOUT IT OUT LOUD:"I really want to thank yingzheng, minghui and khuan tiong's help today! so sorry, that i had to make u all miss yr class! sorry!! appreciate your help! thanks!!"
For tmr:" Thanks FAT1, i will treat u to a good dinner!!!! thanks thanks!!"

wish me luck! hope the week pass slowly!

the desire is too overwhelming

i want a camera!!
i cannot take it anymore! argh!
i hope i can find one asap!
mayb this saturday is a good day to go and spree for it.. (who wanna go out??)
my poor wallet!
i will feed u once my holdays come!!
i promise i will keep my promise!


The air is fresh in nus!
Therefore, i decide to eat air for a few months!!



** I MUST FOCUS!! JIAYOU!! **

wAd i hAvE lEaRn

woke up 11am today! The longest sleep i ever had for this week. Was So thankful about it!! :) Den i when over to AS7 to meet the rest for dance practise!! well well, i feel like a handicapped. I cant dance! seriously!! Alvin(our choreographer ) and S.H.E dance are so chim that i am going bonkus! We start dancing at 2 and i and anqi left at 1030pm. We only have like 1.5hrs for dinner!! Guess wad! It's only the first verse of the song!! KILL ME!! i took so long to learn the first verse and i still dunno! I salute to all dancers out there!!!

Haha.. went home with anqi and we tok alot about wad we think about emerge.. IT's something so stressful yet so fullfilling for this sem! And we console ourselves by saying: "吃的苦中苦，方为 人上人！！" we know we can make it.. since we had gone tru the hard times we will definitely make it tru for our EXAMS! haha.. i know i can do it.. MY SEP IS WAITING FOR ME!
*to anqi: u look very stress! dun pressurise yrself too much k!*

haha.. to say the truth! emerge really taught me alot of things. i really must thank huili for calling me up and ask me whether i want to help out for emerge not. If not, i think i am still floating arnd in nus. crap with tat they all.. haha.. when i look back, i only can remember my crapness.. haha.. but i can comfirm when i look back no matter how many years from now, i know i have not 白活 my life in nus! :) today, huili says that she scares that after the production, she will be damn sad and will miss the production! to say the truth i got this feeling too.. and after emerge we will all be pia-ing for our exam! den.. so sad! Also, anqi n i are thinking of what 庆功宴 we will be having?? and the very first thing we tot of is KTV!!! haha.. yeah!! sing till everybody 爽！

Also, i realise that an encouragement is something that is important to someone when they are at his/her stress peak point! a word of 加油，"we have faith in you" and etc.. really really means alot to the person! I thank those who have give me encouragement and support throughout this sem! So maybe we can start now by encouraging the ppl arnd you. Give them a pat on the shoulder to make their day a better one and yours will in turn be good! :)
*so hint hint: fat1 and mingyang dun bully me ah!!* haha..

I will 加油的！

fed up 2

I dun need shit.. so please dun give me shit..
y always last minute den something bad happen..
i cannot take this anymore..
dying soon..
I NEED SLEEP!!!

FED UP

Argh.. so fed up! super fed up!!
I'm so damn freaking tired! tot i can slack this week.. but i became so damn freaking busy!!
I am a zombie in the day and then in the night i became a drug addict whose 毒瘾 is acting up. Want to sleep but CANT!! can u understand this torture!!
Things are not gong smoothly.. and i cant blog! haha..
HOWEVER, school has been fun! got so many things that i want to write BUT i forgot liao.. see la.. if i dun blog all my thoughts will be gone!!

I'm really cursed sia~ hai.. my lab! tot can get 10 den the tutor reply say yr methods are inefficient and expensive and my overall marks is 9.4! shit! everytime like tt.. i always kana this type of stupid stuff to pull down my marks! What's worse, my 1104, argh.. quite confident modules.. but ten the quiz today.. make me gonna box myself! before handling in the quiz, check yingtat's answer to mine. ONLY 1 same as him!!! shit.. i "buang" my 1104. MUST WORK HARD for the coming test! i comfirm get can good marks for it if i work hard, like wad i did for my maths! i am quite proud of the result actually! yep(hope i didn't see wrongly, if i see wrongly den sad lo)! i can do it! yeah!!

next week is hell.. i tell you!! comfirm is hell!! die, i am so freaking scare.. and emerge is like less than 2 weeks only! i scare i stutter on stage, forgot my lines or burst in laughter!

Argh.. my lectures.. fed up!!! go there slp only.. and i am like in wonderland.. sometimes tho i am awake but i dun understand a shit wad the teacher say and den blur.. i am in deep shit!

Well, i will buck up.. i know i can do it.. i will not let my 1104 down. 'Cos my 1102 is down already! hahah.. i am a shit person!!

*support emerge*