=.=

cannot understand why my england is so powderful.
must i always be so reliant on dictionary.com n its thesaurus???

ROAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~~~~~~~~
i need to do smth abt this!

=.=

有必要这么sad吗?

cannot tahan..
i have been saddened by this songs for days!

透透气

all the readings, all the projs, all the assignments and tutorials..
hai~
i cant breathe..

but i am still taking it easy..
i is dead.
dooms day coming.. hahah..
but then again..
i think..
all of us need to take a break!
so i am taking one too~

mid term break is coming.. yeah n boo! (dun ask me why..)
it's a breather for all of us..
*i hope. cross fingers!*
well..
it juZ got to me..
its the last week to chiong all the fun n go back to the boring uni life..
and hereby i announce..
i am going to pamper myself with THERAPYS!

muahahah.. so wad's the first therapy?
i dun really know..
but here's a list of theraphy i hope i can attain by end of next week..
here goes..
ktvtherapyretailtherapymindnsoultherapymoneytherapymusictherapyeattherapy n etc etc..

but then again..
all these therapy boils down to one problem.
$$$
roar~
nair mind.. must pamper myself for the last lap..
muahahah..
getting excited for the break..
saw jh's msn nick: "ORD mood", felt like changing mine to: "mid term break mood"
LOL~

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tok abt the break..
i wan to say..
i am getting claustrophobic..
tt's scary!
i am asking myself this qns repeatedly..
am i trap in school for too long?
or am i trap in my room for too long?
woo..
i need a break..
i need to go out..
BREATHE..
the fresh air..
see the nice scenary..
get my books out of my sight..
muahahah..
i wan to live by the sea~

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okie..
here's something else..
to my friends oUt there..
i decide to be garang guni..
but is high class that type k!
so if u feel that u have too much unuse stuff..
u can give it to me.
i will do u a favor of having it!

since i is a high class garang guni..
here's a list of things u can give me.
- cds
- clothes, shorts, pants, dress etc etc
- accesories
- bags
i cant think of wad stuff u can give me! hahaha..

ok la.. you may b wondering why do i need all these stuff right?
dun think i am a crazy woman.
hahaha..
i was planning to see my old n usuable stuff online!
so need more stuffs to sell.. hahaha
u may b thinking of the proceeds right??
okie lar.
*after much discussion with moi-self*
i decide to take 5% commission of the total sale.
muahahahahahaha..
k, joking..
i just need stuff to sell online..
so mayb u give me the pic, n a stated price n a description of it.. i help u post online.. and all the proceeds goes to u!
*i good fren lea*

okie.. update me if u wan to sell or give me stuff!
-pls~ since it is gg to be use as resale stuff.. it must be of a certain quality..
u know.. not torn or "yellow" tee-shirt (发霉).
hahaha..

lalalalalllalalala.. sell all my stuff for my therapy!!!

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talk abt online shopping..
i think i am addicted to it..
and i have friends who keep giving me website to go n see!
especially, there's sprees~
ROAR~
i is poor woman dun torture me!!
but.. since.. i cant go out window shopping..
I will do my own little "window" shopping through the windows of my computer..
GOOD LEA..
no need walk so much..
BAD LEA..
there's so many things i wan to buy!

ooh.. someone STOP me!

flOwers oF lOve

~FlOweErs oF lOve~

lOve given to the nEedy
lOve given by sisTaZ
lOve given by boi

Thank You...

not related by blood but are closer than kins

We are not related by blood..
(tho some people say we do have some similar features)
We do not have anything in common..
(talents wise lar)
We are brought together by fate..
We laUgh 2gether..
We 酸 each other..
We dO stUpid things 2gether..
We cRy 2gether..
We play 2gether..
We stand by each Other eVerytIme..
We make a fOol oUt of oUrselves 2gether..
aNd ppl cAnnot cOmprehend..
Y in this wOrld there exists the 4 Of us?

U cant comprehend?
U thInk we R weIrd?
U thInk we r trying to A.A?
it'S up tO yOu all tO think whO we Are..
aS lOng aS we R haPpi, wE dUn give a DamN.

it's beEn some timE...
7 or 8 yeaRs?
so whO's counting?
dOes it matter?
wAd it matters wOuld be tHaT we will alWaz be there fOr eaCh other tilL wE neEd tHe walkIng sticks.

tHanks sisters~
LoVe yOu all LotZ..
thAnks for being there.
thAnks for not asking.
tHaNks for dOing yr mighty best to make me sMilEz.
thAnkS for trusting.
tHaNks fOr supPorting..
tHankS for EVERYTHING..
and lastly, thAnks for being you~

i feel good when i am with u all...
i dUn feel sO sad when times are bad..
bUt it's only when i leave you all i feel worse...
yOu all dO haVe the mAgiC powEr tO make the day shIne..

CaN't Thank enough fOr whAt yOu all have donE.
Thanks~

Light the candle of love

If you think you are suffering now..
mayb you would want to think of the children around in the world who are victims of the internet child abuse..

You think that your problem cant be solve..
think of those abused children who cant even fend or speak for themselves..

So how great is your problem compared to theirs?

Please read:
The innocent victims of Internet child abuse cannot speak for themselves.

But you can.

With your support, we can eradicate this evil trade.

We do not need your money.

We need you to light a candle of support.

We're aiming to light One Million Candles by December 31, 2006.

This petition will be used to put pressure on governments, politicians,financial institutions, payment organisations, Internet service providers,technology companies and law enforcement agencies who have the power to work together to eradicate the commercial viability of online child abuse.

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Together, we can destroy the commercial viability of Internet child abuse sites that are destroying the lives of innocent children.
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~You were once a kid.. you know what a kid should deserve.~

Thank you.

i love my brother

i have a confession..
i love my brother.

Thank you bro!
you are so sweet!
thanks for making yr stupid sister happy.

<<可不可以不勇敢>>

歌曲：可不可以不勇敢
歌手：范玮琪 专辑：真善美

你用浓浓的鼻音说一点也没事
反正又美又痛才是爱的本质
一个人旅行也许更有意思
和他真正结束才能重新开始
几年贴心的日子换分手两个字
你却严格只准自己哭一下子
看着你努力想微笑的样子
我的心像大雨将至那么潮湿
我们可不可以不勇敢?
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人很流行释然
好像什么困境都知道该怎么办
我们可不可以不勇敢?
当爱太累梦太乱没有答案
难道不能坦白的放声哭喊?
要从心底拿走一个人很痛很难

怎样!?

learn a new word this week.
affirmative.
thanks mingyang..
for enlightening me..

so dun affirm me..
i am not a 3 year old kid.
i know wad's my standard..
i am no cleber kid.
i dun have a good command of languange.
i cant converse well in whatever language that i know.
i know wad's going on around me..
i know i may be crazy..
i know i have my high-ness which some may never comprehend.
i have strange thinking which i dun understand myself sometimes.
that's me.
怎样!
just dun affirm me telling me stuff just to please my ears.
it's useless..

I know myself.
i dun need pacifying.
i am not a kid.
i'm just me.

dun lie, dun cheat, dun hide.
P.S I have eyes. I can feel...

*thanks.. no comment wanted for this post!*

bad habit..

i am back to my vicious cycle again..
which i dun really encourage myself to do that..
i got a goal..
i hope i can learn to sleep early..
i shall try my uptmost effort to make it works
hahaha..

bless moi..

*let's set 2am for these few weeks till midterm*
-mid term play like hell-
*come back.. try to sleep at 1 or 12!*
-fat hope.. but i hope i can! it's not wrOng to dream-

how i miss you all..

today, i had a gathering with the e4 clique.
It's been a long time..
Very long..
and i had lost track of when we had one.

tho it's long..
but we still dun change.
nOt one bit..
and i just lOve the way it is.
the way we behave after so lOng..
the way we talk..
the way we feel abt each other..
the way we dun feel any qualms after not meeting each other for very long.
i juZ lOve today.
too bad it is a short one..
but the luNch was good..
i think it's becos of the company that we had got.

okie..
so wad's the update?
today there were ten of us.
too bad.. hui gor gor(muahahaha..) n hwa hwa not free to come..
they went overseas.
think it is for army..
and the rest nvr reply..
but i am quite satisfied with the turnout la.. got 10 lea..
oh yeah.. kel is nOt here.. he went to US to stUdy le~
so we went to the big swensens in town to have our lunch..
Wad else is new?
nothing! hahahah..
i sms them to meet at orchard mrt @ 11am.
and wad is the time that we finally left the mrt stn?
i think its 1145.
i is cleber.. i know they will surely b late.. n i nvr put 12 if not.. hahaha.. i really dunno wad will b the time for us to start eating..
*den ching says. next time see ah loo sms, she knows wad time to reach le.. PI!*
so it is the usual people who were late again as usual. (except ah ngia)
standard..
but it is fun to see this standard..
aNd our blur queen eileen woke up at a wonderful timing..
i think she woke up at 11am. hahaha.. and sO we had to wait.
oh yeah..
mar and the poly guys went into army!
haha.. and marcus got real thin lor!
(变好看了！）
woohoo..
army really do wonders.
hahha.. opps!

we tok alot of cock lar..
not just thAt...
we r still lame as ever..
still blur as ever..
still 搞笑 as ever..
oh my gosh..
today no hwa hwa n jh..
alr so farnie.. i cant imagine the next one! hahaha..

and also..
jasmine's bro is gg to get married..
so cool..
we wan to 喝喜酒。。
too bad.. we dunno him.. if nOt we sure can go..
and den.. when we tok abt this..
the tOpic inevitably will b linked to lionel n xh..
结婚！ 结婚！
its so cute to see them lar..
hahah.. and so is oUr conVersAtion about their relationships..
they have been tOgether since sec 4 ba.. Cool~~
i wan to be the wedding planner..
ok.. 姐妹团！

u know..
lionel says zoo vv smelly so dun wan to go zoo with xh..
den today i go tell him..
IT'S NOT SMELLY..
den he stress and tell xh they will go next time..
muahahaha..

xh says last time is he has to listen to her..
den now.. is she has to listen to him..
so cUte hor.
aNd lastly..
we ask them to get married n ask lionel to saVe
n lionel's reply is tt his army $$ all spent on xh liao..
no more...
hahahaha.. u see the both of them!
okie.. set.. i die die .. wan to see u all get married!

oh yeah..
times flies..
especially when u are grOwing up..
u dun realise how times flies~~~~~~~
and u r gRowing up as a rate that's so fast..
xh says her bro alr reject so many girls and stuff..
i still rmb the times when i went to her hse and her bro was still in primary sch..
and he is like a small boi..
eating parsley w xh to irritate me..
cos i dun like the smell! hahahaha..

and 粪妹..
last time like charcoal..
cos play bball..
nOw is girl liao..
and wans to b white..
even i am darker than her! hahahaha..
and she is as stUpid as ever..

yp is as lame and irritatIng as ever~ hahaha
got sColding from eileen todAy..
obigood lor..
see..

hahaha..
i remember one incident..
is abt eileen n i went usa recently...
den ch say:"OHyo"
den i stress..
i say" is OHIO (o-hi-yo) k"
den xh says..
"ah loo pronounce wrongly is it.."
i look at her with stun eyes..
and she says..
"ah loo alwaZ prOnoUnce wrongly.."
DAMN!
shan is worse lor..(oops! hee~)

oh.. lastly..
hope ch, eileen n fen mei found their dao ming si!!
*ch i know u wan dao ming si too*

hahaha.. so fun..
here's some pics!


grp photo


结婚吧


the guys tt came



the chiobus~



act cute~



the two zhabo tt went US~

*i love you all*

my girl..

she never fails to amaze me..
whenever, i read her post.
And it is always these sort of posts that she post made me admire her..
i like the way she thinks.
i like the way she writes.
i like the way she phrase.

today,
she amaze me once more..
with this post..
which i think its true.
and i think its worth knowing..
it's worth to know wad sort of person u are.
and it's worth to know wad sort of person u need to be..

i love you gal.. :)

here is wad Jasmine wrote.. (peiseh.. dunno how to link.. so i will paste it here..)

Understanding woman

From new clothes to new accessories to lipo on hips, tummy and thigh.
All girls would love to have a fairy godmother by the side and grant all our wishes with a wave of her miracle stick.
Pamper her with everything and anything...

BUTttttt

*triple buts....

Don't ask her to make choices. Don't pamper her with choices. Guys, don't make yourself and member of the opposite sex miserable too. Because given our nature, we tend to think a lot. We will always think of alternatives and ask ourselves if there are better choices available. Unless you don't mind a looooooooong reply, don't give us too many options to choose from.

Well, at the same time, I don't deny that it's really sweet for a guy to ask a girl for her opinion (this shows that he respects her decision too).

Sounds contradicting yea? =)))

I know.

It will takes a lot of effort for a couple to reach that mutual stage whereby both parties take turns in role playing the part of the decision maker.

Thats why I'm thankful for baby's endearing effort in being sensitive to my needs and helping me to take choices out of my hand so I won't have to fret over it =)))
Similarly, for my babyboy,I will always be there to help him out in his decision-making.
For that, I promise you.. =)))


Lastly, I shall end this with a quote by Russell Peters:
BE A MAN. DO THE RIGHT THING.

SIAN AH..

roar..
there's no light outside..
i is freaking tired..
there's so many things to do..

cant sleep..
cant go toilet..
cant eat..

BLEAH!!!!

好爱简单..

it's been a crazy month.
coming back from US, school and settling down.
It's crazy..
It's stressful...
However, i am happy that i am still able to enjoy the most simplest and wonderful things in life.

SIMPLICITY

its really a magical thing.
when u r tired.
when u r stress.
when u feel everything is not right..
simplicity makes it all worthwhile..

and many may think tt this is rubbish..
but it is so true to me.
and all it takes is just a simple mind to look at simple things.

let me gives you of the simple things in my life that i am so happy with.
-a simple conversation with my jie meis.
-a simple and lame joke made by anyone.
-a simple photo that I saw when I open my pgp's door.
-a simple breakfast
-a simple song
-a simple morning. With the sunshine and morning breeze.
-a simple walk
-my FM
-a long bus ride home
-a simple dinner
-decorating my room
-my creativity
-etc etc..

there's so many things that i did.. but i forgot.. roar~
really.. its cool.
just look at things simply and u will feel better.
even if you found a small little ant on yr table.
and it can be wonderful..
*observe how the ant works or how it looks, u will be b amazed!*

I LOVE SIMPLICITY! muahahaha..
hope all of you are too..

A new life.. A new beginning..

When i came back from US,
i know my life will be changed.
I know it.
and it is true..

I began to set new goals for myself.
I began to look at things differently.
I expect my life to change for the better.

I hope i will not be the nua kia as before.
(i am still nua for my everyday life~ muahaha)
i hope things will remain the same as now..
as the sem goes by...
*cross fingers*

Got PGP again. Decide to make it really a good place.
it's a new beginning..
yeah.. and it is becOming a room i wan.
i still have more things to add..
to make it more homely..
i cant wait..
i cant wait till the day i am fully satisfied with the room.

NEW LIFE, NEW BEGINNING would also means MORE STRESS!
expectations on oneself is higher..
i is exhausted..
i is siAnz..
it's only week 4.
and i can feel that it will be tougher as days go by..
All i can say..
is that i only look forward to Friday @ 2 pm.
1.5 days to relac!

- give me a good start and den keep it going the way it is -

P.S wanna whine abit.. think bad luck is coming back.. my printer is spoilt and so is my night light!! please gO away BAD LUCK!

我还在学习 II

有人告诉我,
人在学习中,
总会碰到失败,
不管你有多努力地学好你想学的东西,
你一定会有困难.

当困难摆在你面前时,
你整个人就会被吓到,
你就开始问自己,
你到底要什么?
他们说,
自己要什么就是什么..
所以,
自己知道自己要的是什么了..
就忘了自己要去解决问题..
我最后选择了逃避...

其实,
我有尝试过去解决问题,
但,
我一直错过...
可能是我害怕..
我就一直让问题拖着..
一直地拖着..

或者,
我在欺骗自己..
幻想问题决绝了..
想让自己好过一点...
但,
问题更本没解决,
我一直都在骗自己...

又有人告诉我,
傻瓜以为时间是会为他而停留的..
我笑了傻瓜的愚蠢..
但,
自己不知不觉也变成了个傻瓜.
真的是五十步笑百步...
好傻!!
我就这样...
做了好久的傻瓜...

时间越久,
问题就出现越多...
就在这时,
我恍然问题一直都在..
好想解决..
但,
我一直在错过时机..
就这么被时间拉着...

很不巧的,
问题出现了外来的因素,
使得这个问题越来越大..
问了自己同样的问题,
自己要的是什么..
做什么决定才是对的?
最后,
我做了一个自私的决定...
一个为自己而想的决定...

我承认我没去想后果,
我以为问题不会变得那么大..
以为会没事,
傻瓜就是傻瓜... 嗨~

终于到了一个阶段,
我发觉这个决定其实会带来更大的问题时,
一切都太迟了,
我疯了,
我后悔了,
我后悔没解决我原有的问题..
我后悔为什么我要选择逃避,
我后悔为什么自己要骗自己...

终于,
到了一个阶段大家都无法忍受时..
我想出了个方法...
一个残酷的方法,
一个不公平的方法,
可是我只剩这个方法..

请原谅我们不懂得怎样地去解决这个问题...

我还在学习

i am still learning.
learning to be stronger.
i am trying very hard.
and i know i can do it.

i am still learning.
learning to smile when the times are bad.
the smiles may be small but..
i know i can do it.

i am still learning.
learning to look at things simply.
it is hard given the harsh reality of life but...
i know i can do it.

i am still learning.
learning to be less melancholy.
it's a bad habit of mine but...
i know i can do it.

i am still learning.
learning not to overestimate myself.
it's smth i always thought is not true...
however, it is so true tt i'm so glad tt i did not make that mistake.

i have
learn,
learnt,
and i am still learning..

Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened. -- Unknown

到不了...

X 年前，
她深爱着他，
他却辜负了她。

她拼命握着他的手，
想把距离拉的近一点，
在许许多多的不确定中，
寻觅他的眼神的肯定。

他逃避了她眼神中乞求，
否定了她的存在。
他松开了她的手，
把本在咫尺的她推得远远的。

N 年后，
他悔了，
她却心寒了。

他尝试寻找当初放弃的眼神，
却发现她的眼神再也不是停留在他的身上。
他决定等待，
选择这次换他做她的守护神。

曾为他掉过无数次眼泪的她的眼睛，
再也没勇气去注视他了。
不可原谅的辜负，
心这次选定再也不要去爱了。

X 年后的今天。
他身边出现了另外一个她。
她却很不争气的又为他哭了。

老天的恶作剧？
他的过失？
她的无意的报复？

终究他们爱过， 但也错过彼此。

心酸的感觉，你懂得吗？

this is a story that shan wrote..
its a story that the sistaz know.
its a story that the sistaz are trying to remind each other that we will nvr ever be in it. .
its a story..
and a sad one..

ching says..
this songs suit the story..
so would like to post it here to complement the story..
到不了..
有时候...
i would say.. that's life.
SIMPLICITY IS JUST A DREAM.

歌曲：到不了

你眼睛会笑弯成一条桥
终点却是我永远到不了
感觉你来到是风的呼啸
思念像苦药竟如此难熬
每分每秒
我找不到我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒
我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us. -- Helen Keller