woot..
how many more days??
less than 2 weeks
and i am going to HONGKONG
not v excited intially..
tot i will when i is there and i is back...
didn't realise the pre-trip planning would get me so high!
read tons of reviews and blogs..
to say the truth once experience really won a guide book!
woot!!
seeing the pictures and the things that i am going to do!
i cant wait..
especially the food!!
yum yum!!
its going to be a fat trip!!!
well.. shopping is not in the itenary..
but will grab for cheap deals while we are at mongkok.
exciting exciting!!
hope i can stay there longer!!!
hongkong.. here i come!
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Monday, July 30, 2007
abit guilty
was doing some cruising online..
and chance upon the foodie website..
was thinking of seeing whether there is any interesting places for me to explore and to grab cheap deals along the way..
well..
it got to me that the doctor(who is the blogger)
wrote a post.
it somehow shock me back to reality..
working in gallup for like 3 months.
i was somehow push to the one side of the world.
everyday, i deal with money!
yeah, money..
i got to know more about money..
got to know more stuff..
and inevitably..
wanting to b in the rat race..
i realise i want to be in it..
maybe for the hope of security in the near future??
however, i somehow quite forgotten what i really wanted in life.
so after reading the article abt HIV kids losing parents and their lives..
and still being able to face life with so much grace and cheerfulness.
i admire this spirit.
mayb is becos i do not have this spirit!
hahaha..
but still it is amazing..
to hear all of this coming from a HIV positive child of 5-6 years old.
No parents, no siblings?
Alone in the world..
encouraging ppl arnd her who have the same fate to b stronger.
how irony the world is.
the world seems to b divided.
and strictly speaking.
it is..
i know this is ridiculous..
but after looking tru the page..
i rmb i once wanted to do smth..
and tt is i've got the money..
i wanna adopt a child..
giving the person a new lease of life..
quite nice..
just send money over..
and mayb pay a visit or smth?
i know it is not so easy just to say say..
about giving money and such..
but somehow..
i just feel that if you have this mentality, at least u won't forget the less fortunate..
almost everyone is fighting for themselves.
to climb higher to earn a living..
i really wonder sometimes why do u have to made yrself roll into this rat race situation.
well..
of course there's a lot of theory and terms to explain this..
just felt like voicing out.
I feel that.
if u feel that if u consider that someone who climbs high is someone to look upon.
mayb you shld really go into drastic condition and u will feel who to realli look up upon.
to me..
i will look up upon the 7 years old girl.
i hope that all is well to her and she will have many treasured memories to keep with her before she went to her lord.
and chance upon the foodie website..
was thinking of seeing whether there is any interesting places for me to explore and to grab cheap deals along the way..
well..
it got to me that the doctor(who is the blogger)
wrote a post.
it somehow shock me back to reality..
working in gallup for like 3 months.
i was somehow push to the one side of the world.
everyday, i deal with money!
yeah, money..
i got to know more about money..
got to know more stuff..
and inevitably..
wanting to b in the rat race..
i realise i want to be in it..
maybe for the hope of security in the near future??
however, i somehow quite forgotten what i really wanted in life.
so after reading the article abt HIV kids losing parents and their lives..
and still being able to face life with so much grace and cheerfulness.
i admire this spirit.
mayb is becos i do not have this spirit!
hahaha..
but still it is amazing..
to hear all of this coming from a HIV positive child of 5-6 years old.
No parents, no siblings?
Alone in the world..
encouraging ppl arnd her who have the same fate to b stronger.
how irony the world is.
the world seems to b divided.
and strictly speaking.
it is..
i know this is ridiculous..
but after looking tru the page..
i rmb i once wanted to do smth..
and tt is i've got the money..
i wanna adopt a child..
giving the person a new lease of life..
quite nice..
just send money over..
and mayb pay a visit or smth?
i know it is not so easy just to say say..
about giving money and such..
but somehow..
i just feel that if you have this mentality, at least u won't forget the less fortunate..
almost everyone is fighting for themselves.
to climb higher to earn a living..
i really wonder sometimes why do u have to made yrself roll into this rat race situation.
well..
of course there's a lot of theory and terms to explain this..
just felt like voicing out.
I feel that.
if u feel that if u consider that someone who climbs high is someone to look upon.
mayb you shld really go into drastic condition and u will feel who to realli look up upon.
to me..
i will look up upon the 7 years old girl.
i hope that all is well to her and she will have many treasured memories to keep with her before she went to her lord.
Friday, July 27, 2007
today..
we have the last briefing of OCBC briefing.
i felt that i really learn alot of financial stuff from them.
i've gain so much knowledge.
i felt good at one part.
i am like attending a course on banks rather than to have a normal briefing.
having said that..
i very much wanted to share whatever i know and i feel to boi at every point.
but somehow..
it seems hard..
alot of plans made and things did today.
realli wanted to share on the everything i did or plan..
and hoping that boi could join.
however, i know it's abit hard.
well.. we planto go for a "last day" dinner and outing..
1)Going chalet?
2)Going JB?
3)Going Nancy's place?
Dunch kow..
today we end work early.
all of us went to glutton square and den we have chocolate fondue(nancy treat!)
to end off..
the day is great at certain part.
bad at certain part.
i learn and relearn things.
today..
i can feel the power of hl's advice:"Don't underestimate your threshold for aftereffect."
alot of people flash past my mind at certain parts of the night.
i realise..
it's only when things happened.
that whatever you have learn..
is not what you actually wanted.
i realise..
the brain is really a complicated system.
your feelings is a catalyst to make it more confusing.
and your judgment is just a gambling den.
to make the correct bet on the actions that you want to do or not..
we have the last briefing of OCBC briefing.
i felt that i really learn alot of financial stuff from them.
i've gain so much knowledge.
i felt good at one part.
i am like attending a course on banks rather than to have a normal briefing.
having said that..
i very much wanted to share whatever i know and i feel to boi at every point.
but somehow..
it seems hard..
alot of plans made and things did today.
realli wanted to share on the everything i did or plan..
and hoping that boi could join.
however, i know it's abit hard.
well.. we planto go for a "last day" dinner and outing..
1)Going chalet?
2)Going JB?
3)Going Nancy's place?
Dunch kow..
today we end work early.
all of us went to glutton square and den we have chocolate fondue(nancy treat!)
to end off..
the day is great at certain part.
bad at certain part.
i learn and relearn things.
today..
i can feel the power of hl's advice:"Don't underestimate your threshold for aftereffect."
alot of people flash past my mind at certain parts of the night.
i realise..
it's only when things happened.
that whatever you have learn..
is not what you actually wanted.
i realise..
the brain is really a complicated system.
your feelings is a catalyst to make it more confusing.
and your judgment is just a gambling den.
to make the correct bet on the actions that you want to do or not..
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
fear in me
this week..
i got a lot of fear..
and i have overcome some..
however, there's one such terrible fear..
that i have been avoiding..
IS BACK.
i can feel my nervous breaking dwn when i met it..
TMD..
first time in my life..
the immense stress i ever had..
i look at my module summary..
just one..
i got a nervous breakdwn..
at 2 plus am..
i got tremendous stress running tru my whole body...
i scare i cant wear my robe!
i want to frame it de lea.. (wonder if it's for sale)
and give it to my papa!
maybe that's the best gift ever given by me..
not even a third class, just a pass..
i think he will be happy!
GOD!
save me!
i got a lot of fear..
and i have overcome some..
however, there's one such terrible fear..
that i have been avoiding..
IS BACK.
i can feel my nervous breaking dwn when i met it..
TMD..
first time in my life..
the immense stress i ever had..
i look at my module summary..
just one..
i got a nervous breakdwn..
at 2 plus am..
i got tremendous stress running tru my whole body...
i scare i cant wear my robe!
i want to frame it de lea.. (wonder if it's for sale)
and give it to my papa!
maybe that's the best gift ever given by me..
not even a third class, just a pass..
i think he will be happy!
GOD!
save me!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
AAAAAHHHHHHHH
bombarded with so many stuffs..
suddenly..
i just feel like taking a long long break!!!!!!!!
Gib me a break
BUT i don't want a kit kat!!!
*i wan a player to be put in my blog*
*but i dunno how!!*
*i need a graphic designer and a web page designer to talk to me*
*i need people who is good with flash*
*i need.. *
*i need...*
*i need...*
*a break* (i want to leave gallup)
suddenly..
i just feel like taking a long long break!!!!!!!!
Gib me a break
BUT i don't want a kit kat!!!
*i wan a player to be put in my blog*
*but i dunno how!!*
*i need a graphic designer and a web page designer to talk to me*
*i need people who is good with flash*
*i need.. *
*i need...*
*i need...*
*a break* (i want to leave gallup)
Monday, July 16, 2007
back.. but not for long..
yeap. back..
just back from meeting at suntec..
man..
i was tired..
i didn't know why and my neck hurts.. it may be due to the straining of the neck when i work as i need to look up to the computer all day long. I wonder whether it is the cause of it not?
Hmph..
WORK is really a DRAG!
i work for thirty minutes today and i decide to leave the office.
I suddenly have the rush of feeling that tells me that..
i am not suppose to be here..
my time should be spent on something more worthwhile.
3 months holidays.
i plan big! i plan to do lotsa stuff..
but because of work..
time flew to nowhere..
all the plans..
all the hopes..
were pushed to KIV!
haiz..
well..
at least i got to meet nice people and learnt lotsa financial stuff!
i am exposed to new stuff and i made myself to plan.
I want to go back school now..
to be involved in school activities. (maybe not the part on studies yet.. but at least give me some fulfillment! i feel dry inside!)
luckily..
i am back to voices to be involved once again.
and this time..
i want to challenged myself!
hahaha..
i want to learn FLASH.
this time by hook or crook i have to do it.
i took up the idea, i postphone and now.. i give myself no excuse..
i really feel that i am an aquarius..
well that's what some people says..
aquarians learn alot of stuff but they will not go to the advanced stage.
they will learn and switch to the others.
looking back at my premier and photoshop,
i couldn't help but sigh..
i know the basic..
but i still got a long way to go..
and now.. i want to learn flash!
this is amusing..
well.. learn bit by bit..
maybe one day.. i am able to juggle the three of them quite well..
i felt that i have a passion to design.
maybe that's just a passing moment.
or maybe..
it is something i feel that it is challenging and if i did it i feel a great sense of achievement and resulted in me to have this great passion/interest!
well..
Dunno la..
i decide to sleep now!!
night people..
bless me to hav a gr8 day.
just back from meeting at suntec..
man..
i was tired..
i didn't know why and my neck hurts.. it may be due to the straining of the neck when i work as i need to look up to the computer all day long. I wonder whether it is the cause of it not?
Hmph..
WORK is really a DRAG!
i work for thirty minutes today and i decide to leave the office.
I suddenly have the rush of feeling that tells me that..
i am not suppose to be here..
my time should be spent on something more worthwhile.
3 months holidays.
i plan big! i plan to do lotsa stuff..
but because of work..
time flew to nowhere..
all the plans..
all the hopes..
were pushed to KIV!
haiz..
well..
at least i got to meet nice people and learnt lotsa financial stuff!
i am exposed to new stuff and i made myself to plan.
I want to go back school now..
to be involved in school activities. (maybe not the part on studies yet.. but at least give me some fulfillment! i feel dry inside!)
luckily..
i am back to voices to be involved once again.
and this time..
i want to challenged myself!
hahaha..
i want to learn FLASH.
this time by hook or crook i have to do it.
i took up the idea, i postphone and now.. i give myself no excuse..
i really feel that i am an aquarius..
well that's what some people says..
aquarians learn alot of stuff but they will not go to the advanced stage.
they will learn and switch to the others.
looking back at my premier and photoshop,
i couldn't help but sigh..
i know the basic..
but i still got a long way to go..
and now.. i want to learn flash!
this is amusing..
well.. learn bit by bit..
maybe one day.. i am able to juggle the three of them quite well..
i felt that i have a passion to design.
maybe that's just a passing moment.
or maybe..
it is something i feel that it is challenging and if i did it i feel a great sense of achievement and resulted in me to have this great passion/interest!
well..
Dunno la..
i decide to sleep now!!
night people..
bless me to hav a gr8 day.
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