me n my big mouth

i remember saying that i am vv free.
i would like to CORRECT this statement.
NOT ANYMORE.
is either i am crazy that day or i am still in a holiday mood.

super late nights is back.
not going home during the weekend is becoming an option.
i am also looking into the option of sleeping late n waking up early and go to central lib to mug.
~or should i say to make central lib my second home in NUS?~
and to skip lecture.. 'cos i need to finish my SHITS (tt's juz a consideration)

What's efficiency?
to complete my stuff?
or to complete my stuff at a given time?

sometimes i tell myself.
the time u exceed spending on smth is not necessary a bad thing.
it means more effort is put in.
it will be good.
BUT..
there's a limit to everything ba~
i cant b exceeding time everytime.
too much time spent may not means good quality.
It may still be shit.

i seem to forget how you will feel to finish all the shit that you have on a given day.
i know i have it when i am in zhss n when i am in states.
it IS siong.
not siong. IS super duper siong.
i tot i found the feeling back.
but then again..
*all the pilings of shit.. (really lea.. all sorts of different one!)
shall not tok abt it.*

it's like an internal struggle.
you wan swee swee but u also wan fast.
how can~
to me.. is cannot one.
fine.
i shall continue to have this internal struggle.
everyday, i will have different rounds of fight between time n swee.
but i know swee alwaz wins.
(but when i am tired.. i will consider letting time wins) ==> and that's when fear comes into play too.
woohoo..
my life rox man!
that's me. =.=

*i shall announce. i'm so screwed.*

my habits have change.
but i still dun feel accomplished.
come on..
let me feel it once more..





i shall make it happen.
i am a woman on a mission.