lost memories..

it's 2am.
MONDAY.
i'm not having monday blues but rather a mixture of panic and stress..
5 more days to networking exam and 2 more weeks away from my official closure of my year 2 in uni life.
WOOT! it sure is fast..

Saturday,
met up with sec frens to attend 粪妹 bday party.
well.. (they are the reason for me to blog at this weird time and putting aside all my networking stuff~)
okie okie.. back to them..
well.. the usual people,
the usual self..
the usual stupidiness..
nothing is different..
we were the same like 5 years ago..(tt's long huh..)
people were late as usual..
but nonetheless we were able to talk cock n laff like mad to pass time..
spending time with them is realli enjoyable..
i am realli glad that i went for it..
gettng away from the mundane work i am doing for the day..

everything was good..
but deep down
i know..
we have grown..
the looks, the actions, the thinking is exactly the same as 5 years ago.
however, our life still goes on..
and so we have to update ourselves with each other's life.

i love the way we talk.. the way we laugh.
Even jas parents can see we have so much things to say..
so much to catch up..
but then again..
our catch up is done tru stupid lame-ing and cam-whoring most of the time
hohoho.. *as childish as ever*

and it is undeniable that..
everyone's future is somewhat set.
a few more years we will be the "rats" in the amazing race of the working society.
it sounds scary.. but then again..
to see everyone have a plan of their own,
a place where they belong..
inevitably, they make me worry and envy..

worry about running the rat race with all the other rats?
hahaha.. nope!
it's just that, my future is still blur.
i cant help but admire my friends who are paving out their future..
planting seeds and fertilizers
and waiting for harvesting time.
it's good to have it all plan out.

2/1.5 year more..
AT THIS TIME.
i am still thinking..
think and think and think..
talk and talk and talk..
but somehow..
the conclusion is still hanging..
oops.. that's me.. isn't it. hahaha..

WELL, it was some "sort" plan out le la..
but the soundness of the plan, my indecisiveness and the cruelty of the society
make me worry..
i now wonder.. what realli is the factor that makes me worry..
i think in the end..
the answer is that i am worried that i fail to myself again.
however, i am glad to have boy around to give me the light, to give me the advice and also to give me the encouragement.
i just hope.. this time round.. it will be a good decision made!

but heyhey..
nonetheless,
i am so so glad that my friends around me is doing so well..
and some of them actually had their future PLANNED..
all they had to do is wait..
saving up le wor.. hahahah.. *wink*

amidst all these worries,
i had a wonderful day cam-whoring with them.. (ahhem.. i went with 2 other girls and 5 GUYS! yes.. GUYS, they suggest to cam-whore wor.. hahaha..)
realli had a great time and i love it when we talk about the good old times and oops.. missing out dezhan again.. hee~

I SIMPLY LOVE,
the way my memories are kept..
sweet and simple..
silent but not forgotten..
and the best part of it..
is tt it's always the same old people who are able to multiply these wonderful memories for me.

Love ya peeps.
JiAyou!! will see u in ah ngia bday?? or we will have a gathering like wad hwa hwa says??