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rationality

realise..

that all men are weakling.
its only the mechanism that we call rational and maybe ego that result us to have this strong side.

many times,
we will feel tired.
we will feel stress.
we will have alot of bad and negatives feelings.
many a times,
we so very much wanted to be a child.
to be demanding.
to be cheeky.
to be mischievous.
to be able to release the "kept" emotions.

but because of rational/ego..
u continue to "keep" this emotion.
is that why..
we always look back..
hoping to be a child again?

i want to be a child again!

a day in the student life..

just some tots after toking to shan mei mei
she says she feel guilty not studying..
den i tell her..
how guilty i am now..
to take a few hours of afternoon nap this afternoon.

HELLO..
this is wad we human need.
sleep, rest, food, water, etc etc..
how come this society or rather the world
is working at such a pace that during the festive season
we as a student cant rest properly and has to feel guilty over a few hours of sleep???

but in another sense..
if u work hard before the mid term break..
u will not feel guilty!
argh..
the paradox of life..
or is it the paradox of a not hard working student??

TSK!

the month of feb

Yep..
i have been missing for a long time.
today is the lunar eve of chinese new year..
i decide to come back..
to write wad had happened within these few missing moments!

well, nothing to write about.
has been busy.. so tt's ythere's a huge blank in my blog.
SORRY!!
well..
feb..
my love n hate month.
dun ask y.
this feb is special..
cos its my 21st bday and my first vday.

i want to thank all my frens and boi for all their hard work
and also to those who make special arrangements to come down to my party~
i know,
got tons of ppl celebrating their bday on the 10th
and alot of u all had to run here n there.
i really do appreciate~

special thanks to my sistaz, songsong, my grass's clique, my dear, huili's mum, huili and etc etc
and whoever help in one way or another~
really appreciate!!
*to the most tired boi of tt day: THANK YOU!!!! -hugz- *

well.. its chinese new year again.
to all the peeps out there..
win lots of money from the the gambling den.
take lots of hongbao.
and pia hard for the mid terms! *haiz*

its the most happening week that i ever had..
12th: bday dinner at saf yatch club
its nice to dine just beside the sea.
its nice to see so many yatch
its nice to go to places i have never go before.
its nice to receive surprises.
its nice to have a wonderful day.
its nice to be happy

14th: have a wonderful and longest breakfast that i ever had and also to receive surprises again. its nice to see people walk by to work/school while i am able to sit beside boi to eat breakfast and sip tea. my "ideal life of relaxing". when time is not as impt as before. You can afford to let time pass by without feeling guilty.

After a very full breakfast. Its exploration again and our long awaited hippo tour~ yeah! ot to be the tourist the whole day. Tho it is hot on the top of the bus.. but u got to see the world.. okie, singapore in another view~ NICE! also got to eat out long awaited seafood platter and rush of for our night tour on the hippo bus~ yeah! went to bugis and chinatown. Tho its a place that we went before and shop till we sian.. we were able to transform ourselves and enjoy the streets that we had went before. Last stop for us.. SENTOSA. We never tot we will end up in sentosa. Since the bus will return to suntec.. we decide to alight in sentosa and walk around before gg back. We calculated. We were out on the streets for 14/15 plus hours? hee~

Thanks for everything.

here are some of the pictures that my photographer took on my special day~ some are provided by jasmine. I am still looking for those who had camera on that day~~
wishing all happy new year once again!!!!

preparing for the big party~!


during the party and cut cake session

cut cake session and opening of prezzie

~~with my jc frens~~ 

happy CNY

have u ever sit on a chair
and think of wad different people that u know are doing now?

its not that hard.
especially on such a day like today..
'cos everyone will be doing the same thing..

Happy Chinese Lunar New Year..

I haben made my birthday wishes this year..
I alwaz did my wishes when i go temple on New Year..
I decide to made a change..

I wish for happiness..
to EVERYONE~

Happy NEW YEAR~

学会...

be realistic.
be rationale.
be compose.
be able to think alot of stuff at one go.
be able to put myself in other ppl's shoe.
to be myself again.

looking forward to the 10th.
tt's the day.
when i see them.
tt's the day,
i know where i belong.
thanks for bringing me back.

默契

太可怕了。
太神奇了。
太喜欢了。

:)

my mama pick up a 4 leaf clover when she had me..

well..
i dunno whether this is true or not.
but i do wan to admit.

i feel lucky.
as in lucky in life.
tho there's alot of suay things that happen to me.
however, i do count my blessings.
and today..
i feel it.
i dunno why.
mayb i got high over my bday!
budden..
i recount on some of the day to day basis..
specific frens.
specific boi.
specific family members..

i juz feel lucky..
thank you all..
i feel good to have you all!
love ya~!

the night wind..

was looking out of the window..
then i realise..
its cooler out there den i my room..
the roof looks tempting..

wanna sit on it..
mayb tmr's night?
In Zit's comic,
he like to lay on it..
i tot of tt when i was small
but i scare i fall...

i realise it wun fall..
and i am not scare..
the wind is too tempting!

i shall do it..
when?
i am not sure..
let's set it..
when everyone is asleep..

真。假。

old habits dun change

yar.. am doing budget for lws workshop..
but i got stuck..
and got the urge to blog.
old habits are die hard.
am running out of time but still would like to take a breather..
but seriously..
i dunno wad to put in the budget le!!!

okie.. newae..
no work for now..
was on the bus hm..
i saw an elderly man holding a nice white n pink rose in his hands.
his face is emotionless n expressionless.
but still i could sense that 2 stalks of rose seems important.
he is not looking at it.
but..
the feeling he gave me is so strong.
and den i got this image of him just visiting his love's resting place.
or the two roses are the symbol of his love and it is to remind him of her of this special day.
dun ask me..
y i got this weird vision.
that face i saw..
made me have this vision.
hahahah...

argh...
still dunno wad to include..
and i is su la..
ROARzZz!!!

tell me,
y am i born coward!!!

y this song again..

i got a feeling...
i post this song before..
but today on the way home..
i heard it..
i revive the emotions i heard it for the first time..
Enjoy..

歌曲：拥抱

歌手：五月天 专辑：听不到你

脱下长日的假面奔向梦幻的疆界
南瓜马车的午夜换上童话的玻璃鞋
让我享受这感觉我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味纷乱世界的不了解

昨天太近明天太远默默聆听那黑夜
晚风吻尽荷花叶任我醉倒在池边
等你清楚看见我的美月光晒干眼泪
那一个人爱我
将我的手紧握
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~别走*

隐藏自己的疲倦表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言就算是你的谎言
我需要爱的慰借就算那爱已如潮水

repeat*

那一个人爱我
将我的手紧握
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~别走

抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~别走
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~

"Er.. wrong number"

nah.. not wrong number.
yep, i am back.
It's been a vv vv long time.
have been busy during the hols.
meeting up with ppl, celebrations, etc etc.
a year had just past.
yeap.. A YEAR!
one month holidays had past.
yeap.. A MONTH..

MONTH N YEAR..
in comparison.
they are different.
in terms of length.
but..
they are the same
they are the measurement of time.
and TIME..
past by so quickly.
and before u knew it.
TIME has past.

1 mth.
school started.
got back to pgp.
bao left.
things happened.
things happening.
things happens.

promise will update u all abt some of the happenings for the last sem.
but i got lazy.
got no inspiration.
and got an empty comp(juz reformat it. :) )
so yar..
It's a good and happening year.

you may ask
resolution??
dun have.
dun believe in making one.
Y?
hahaha.. think i am crazy.
wad's the point of making the same resolution over n over again over the years.
y not put it as a reminder in yr mind,
and work towards it slowly.
day by day.
years by years..
if u think u are improving.
that's great.
if u are not..
keep on.. work hard..
dun b restraint by the year.
and reflect at 31st of dec tt u haben fulfill wad u really wanted n make a same old new resolution again..
that's just a thought..
FOR ME..
hahahah..

wad got me to blog..
hahaha..
thanks to this webby..
i saw a pic.
it strikes me.
emotions overwhelmed.
ppl say:"i can understands how u feel. REally."
well, can you? at the moment?
i thought i did.
i said it.
mayb i knew..
but i din realise..
the emotions aren't tt great until just now..
tt picture.
*haIz*
wadever it is...
life has to go on..
and life has to go on in a meaningful way.
it's ok to feel sad, lost, down..
we humans are born to FEEL.
sometimes letting emotions out is a good therapy too.

well..
i would juz say..
it's a pity.
and i wonder..
sometimes..
shld i believe FATE or MYSELF...

have more fun peeps!!
school gg to OFFICIALLY start soon..
jiayou jiayou~!
i must jiayou too!
hahaha..

it will be another good year..
i believe!

空

i suppose the title can somehow describe how i am feeling right now.
i am not depressed.
just..
feel something is missing.

i've learnt quite alot for the past few weeks.
i've learnt..

美丽的风景只有在你累的时候才最动人。
好盼望每天都能看到的风景，
真的会让你每天都有这种感觉吗 ?

失败的定义
其实是自己给的.
失败过,
不管在怎么努力..
没有那份勇气.
怎样都站不起来。

在一天内，
一个人可以笑好多次。
但，
每一个笑，
都有不同的意识。

怀念，
真的只可以让你念着。
想回到过去，
也只能用想的回去。

努力，
有时候是费的。
天分，
才比较实在。
但是，
如果， 你有努力和天分。。
那。。你该知道你会得到什么。

快乐，不开心，愤怒。。
种种心情，其实不是自己给的。
而是，
因状况而产生的。

懦弱和勇气
其实，
只是一线之差。

最后，
人是复杂的。

still got alot.. but i seem to forget.. :)

remember this phrase from someone. (forgot who.. 'm sorry)
"I seem to lost myself while trying to find the new me."
find it very true.
my normal "no life" routine (i think my sistaz know wad it means lar..),
made me realise that everybody is caught up in the rat race.
be it u r working or u r studying..
"A fulfilling life is better than slogging your life for good results.."
may sound familiar to some,
may sound stupid to some.
i fall into the first category.
so familiar..
but i realise..
by having a fulfilling life..
would mean good results.
good results are actually a subset of fulfilling life.
men wans
money.power.status.
fulfilling life = money + power + status
dun say its untrue.
whatever you want for a fulfilling life,
it somehow are tied up with that three WOW words.
scared?
for wad..
you have been living in this sort of world for so long..

i'm still finding myself..
but the problem is..
i am very slow in looking for things.
have been thinking of hospitality again..
hahaha..
i need to 打很多电话。。 (mei will know wad i mean..)
darn it.
but i scare i 打了。。
又是个错误的选择。。
还是继续找吧。。

hohoho..
i seriously need a treasure hunter's spirit in my life..
girl (april),
SERIOUSLY,
i am damn proud n so jealous of u..
hohoho..

我被你们摸到

yes.
被摸到。
this is what chingy says when she receives my card.
i wan to say i 被你们摸到too.
TOUCHED.
SUPER DUPER touched!

hahah..
我一个人又冷又累在library mug..
hoping i can get some warmth.
probably a jacket..
'cos the stupid me can hold my jacket in my hands and realise it is lost only a few hours later..
it is my bday prezzie somemore..
'm totally disgusted with myself!
yar.. so i m freezing in the lib..
no jacket man 'cos he got exam.
and i also shy!

den..
i met my sista..
woo.. shan mei mei, i love ya..
hahaha.. she brought 2 jacket.
1 for her n 1 for me.
to use till i buy a new one!
wahlao~
摸到摸到摸到。。
u all is my besta frEnz

den.. this morning..
i receive a call..
ching mei mei..
she says her mama cook food for me..
she bringing to school for me..
argh..
摸到摸到摸到
rant the whole day wanting to eat homecook food n woohoo..
got home cook food to eat liao..
tho i vv shy..
hahahah..
ching mei mei's mama food is nice de wor..
am so excited!

happy happy!!

okie..
back to my JApan..
lauZ..
i read until i wAn to sleep.
Nara, Hein, Tukugawa, Meiji.. think miss out smth in between.. den u must rmb all those stupid ppl. i now only can rmb Fujiwara.. who marries all his daughters to the emperor.. Eeewwwwew..
okie.. back to the books!

JiayOu pEeps.
JiAyOu BOy~
JiaYOu Moi~

i'm the late musketeer..

muahahah.. yep.. the late musketeer is here to blog about her idea! muahaha...
tt's my idea. sweet right.
Congrats!!
tho i came so late.. and everything is done.
and not all my ideas are used!
=.=
All the best~ Together Forever! :p


okie.. am bored.. so decide to blog..
have been raining for days.
have been reading for days.
i is BORED!
i is SIANZ!
so many overdued post..
will keep u guys update again!

oh yeah.. I DESPERATELY NEED JOB.
muahahah.. wad else is new.
tok to me if got lobang! :)

JiayOu peeps!

youtube's queen influence..

for him..

作曲:人工卫星填词:李焯雄

都可以随便的
你说的我都愿意去
小火车摆动的旋律
都可以是真的
你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你
细腻的喜欢
毛毯般的厚重感
晒过太阳熟悉的安全感
分享热汤
我们两支汤匙一个碗
左心房暖暖的好饱满
我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
真心的对我好
不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要

回忆里满足的旋律
你手掌的厚实感
什么困难都觉得有希望
我哼着歌
你自然的就接下一段
我知道暖暖就在胸膛
从来都很低调
自信心不高
你比自己更重要
我也希望变更好