2nd last week - - Challenge Quest

this is my 2nd last group and tmr.. my last group is coming.. and that means camp is going to be over.. time sure flies.. i still remember the time when i first arrive and was thinking when will camp be over and in an twinkling of an eye.. it's time for me to go..

well.. still got one more week so shall not talk about leaving..
got this group.. and i am the only counselor. this is wad i would like to try.. but i am really scare when i got to know i was the only counselor with only 8 kids. and they are not small kids. they are like teenagers. i was really worried that they dun dig me.. and it is a 5 night program.. if they dun dig me.. it will mean hell.. last sunday i was feeling jittery and scare.. but it all went well.. and we had fun!

well.. they are big girls and they are here for lots of ropes course challenge.. they taught me one thing.. teamwork is really important.. they dun have teamwork.. that's why they are a disaster.. maybe i am a person with high expectation on certain things.. that's why.. i feel that they are not doing a good job.. they are always arguing.. until i is fed up.. the group is fed up.. but hai~ we got tru.. and clover was actually quite impress with them even tho they are always fighting.. i think they just need a helping hand on two to help them to get around.. but really.. u see the way they work.. i think i can vomit blood.. hahaha

it makes me think back on emerge.. the synergy we had.. i dunno.. it's a big project.. and we are able to work so well together.. i am actually quite impressed with wad we had produce.. maybe its because we are all working towards a common goal.. and everybody respect one another and things like that.. so the fruits we got is always sweet. no matter the result.. its the process that count.. but for my group.. they cant pin hopes on their process cos it was painful all i can say.. they shall pin hopes on their fruit.. i am being bad.. i know i should like teach them to work together.. but its not like i din.. "when they are good, they can be very very very good.." and when i tot i taught them wad is teacmwork.. someone.. will come up with stupid things and argue.. and that tiny happiness in me crash.. so therefore i give up on them.. and i began my role as someone to keep on reminding them not to fight.. rather than to teach them why it is not good to fight..

i is bad teacher.. woah.. not easy to have a group yrself.. tho its fun to plan all the things in the way u like and stuff.. i plan a jungle breakfast for them.. hide all their breakfast.. and gives them clues.. suppose to eat it in jungle.. but i decide to be a kind soul to let them eat in dining hall.. den i plan some games for them.. had crtificate given out.. complete 2 badges for juniors and 1 badge for cadettes. quite satisfied.. had 2 cookouts. the dinner one need to start a fire.. and i was so scare about it.. but guess wad.. i make my own fire.. out of like 20 matches.. i is so happy.. u should see the happiness in me.. after so many times of failure! (in the past)

hahaha.. yeah.. that should be all ba.. the kids tell me that they hate hearing me say:"It's ok!" and "Come on!".. please.. they are really slow and they need reassurance.. when i say it's ok.. i really mean that it will be solve.. but they think that no matter wad it's not ok! peng! hahaha..

well.. bringing kids to the med is like a routine to me.. the kids like got a lot of problems. u should see the med they eat..
den whiskers(the nurse) says i am disgustingly healthy.. hahaha.. cos i dun need meds or anything.. i think bubbles too.. its like.. er.. i think its a good thing.. but they feel that we are super healthy.. but i do a little thinking abt it.. actually ... they dunno the other half of me.. i got super big migranes.. and i dun eat pills.. and i dun see doc.. and my health will deterioate after i overwork for so long and i finally got to relax.. my system broke down and den i got real sick.. it seldom happens.. it depends on when i decide to let my body fully relax.. (hmm.. dunno u all understand not..) but it's ok! well.. i was thinking.. since my body works like that.. will it one day crash on me.. and that's the end of me? i think it will happen.. 'cos i tink i am not a healthy person.. yep.. and so it send chills to me.. will i die young? i haben see the world!
*oh yeah.. i wanna announce to peeps who still dunno abt my elbows.. i am double jointed.. its like broken elbow.. hahaha*