it's back

mei ask me @ lunch today，
"it's back ah.."

den i ask her is it very obvious.
she say yes.
hai~

yes.
it's back.
'cos its the time of the sem again.
everyday..
it seems worst.

vv angry!
i hate this time of the year.
i cant breathe.
i've drowned on some days.
and revived for some hours and den died again.

"4" this number is what i'm looking forward to.
"17", end of my misery?
"XX", will i die of disappointment?

i is 懦弱。
i is 可笑的。

the fact had actually never left me.