is he feeling tt he is ugly?

yeah.. going for exchange is good.
u meet lots of ppl and learn lots of things

this trip is good.
there's a lot of my 同乡.
and we can bitch.
bitch abt wad?
our homeland.
cool huh!
i think we are the only ppl who can openly and happily without any qualms n say it is S***

right.
it's economic is stable.
there's no natural disaster.
we even got some sweets to shut our mouth off at some point in time when gst is rising up. 
woohoo.. where do we get it.
our tax is relatively low.
our medical fee is low.
our stuffs are advaned. 
we are like oh wow.. GREAT!
and continue to live our live as tt.

so.. this trip.
PARTICULARLY
there's alot to bitch abt this erhem.. eutopia?!?! (that's wad i tot it is when i was small).
i began to feel that i am like a toy.
a sim character perhaps.
who is being controlled by someone..
and this is scary..
cos it is unknowingly.
but as u grow up..
u will know more ppl.
ppl who are not a sim character or is being controlled by someone
and u know..
u are in deep shit

and i am very angry
cos that guy apparently tot he is ugly.. [i concluded it myself]
and conclude that WE are ugly.
and he made all the erhem unknown policy which i never got to know of.
or perhaps..
it is known to all..
just tt i dun care.
but i am upset
he had made it a fact that WE are ugly.
darn it.

so yup.
so we were walking happily back from our pork bbq..
and hohyeon tells me abt this pretty babe who is the cousin of his roommate.
and he tells me she is in nus.
so i was like wow.
pretty..
can go singapore find her and get to know her.
u know this sort of reply.
but apparently..
he had said that..
she was chosen to come to singapore to study.
and it was like a norm!
where someone from sg will go over to the high school and pick ppl to go sg study.
good deal!
woohoo!!
come on..
what's the criteria?
that person must be pretty!! WOOHOO

WHy?!?!
the bond is like 5-6years..
so someone who is here for tt long..
can apply for PR
and den wad happened?
get married!
and then??!
give birth to pretty babies!
good strategy..
good!!

i love socio class actually.
i learnt.
i learnt i am able to choose.
i learnt the stuff i dunno.
i love the tingle of emotion that flow tru my blood when i learnt "old" stuff
the hedious plan behind all. 
he who wants to make a legacy for himself will fail.
and everyone is waiting for the day he fall.. [u shld see the forums. ]

i cant accept the fact that we are considered like dirt. 
a puppet. 
a tool. 
just to let the economy run. 
and the good breeds will enjoy and form the DESIRED population that he wanted.

great. 
for one reason i know.
some of the guys who came here wants to study. 
a good uni. 
for the top notch uni is where they cant step into. 
not becos they are poor
but there are just too many great minds out there! 
and once a degree is there.
*puff*
off they went to the land of freedom where the post graduate course are much more alluring.
and *puff* all the DESIRED ppl are no where to be seen.
and wad abt us?
we will continue to shut our mouth due to the sweets we got every year.
n a sim character will continue to live its life happily.

coming to korea is GREAT
i love the ppl.
okay.
not the temper.
i have seen alot of quarrels.
but i somehow still like it.
not like our own erhem natives.
i hate u..
i dun scold u
i just throw a knife from behind..
n u are dead.
we are that bad. 
*shake head*
yup.
so seriously..
a qns to ponder..
if the sentosa sea(whatever it is called) was changed to malaysian sea or smth.
will u care?
come on..
if i can still play in tt water.
withoout paying tax or anything..
i realli dun.
THAT's what we are.
but that's not wad outside singapore.
they are so patriotic

i rmb the camp's day where my frens brought their flag over.
i dun even tot of bringing it.
the use of tt flag was only for august.
nothing else.
this is bad.

brain drained..
we do not have our own talents.
the erhem.. good breed that someone wanted.. 
will gone with the wind.
and yoohoo..
wad will we be?

we will go back to 1960 where we were part of our neighbour.
he himself said so himself.

@.@

i am still angry abt the ugly part.
but one last thing.
was told that we had some special army force called dunkut? (smth like tt)
got 1000 of them in singapore.
we hired them here.
they were born to fight in war. 
they were like robots.
a man is equiv to 3men.
it didnt get too much impact on me
when she tells me.
what if they decide to abandon us and fight against us.
i cant imagine the scenario.

mayb i have read too much abt this.
probbie due to hotel rwanda n my 7 ancient wonders of the world.
but yah..

@.@