is the same old thing again..

well..
my flu got better..
but is still not okie..
but its so much better..

Well,
but my reult din get better..
i am utterly upset..
not because of the results but because of my life..
i think i am fated to be academically handicapped..
cant score!
no matter how much more effort i put in..
and how much more illusions i gave myself..

this sem's result..
SucKS..
i still cant get out of my 2. smth cap category..
how do i go SEP??
roar..
never mind..ICEP all my life..
tho i vv much wanted to go SEP!
will strive!
nanZ ask me to go pray at YT, and carry his leg at the eve of the exam cos he is exam deity..
well, peeps.. guess wad he scOre?
All As!!! 2 A- ...
i will nvr ever get this result!

Okie.. i say announce!
if one day..
I JENNIFER GOH HWEE LOO.. can get all As..
I shall treat u all to a feast!
i swear!
and i know.. the day will never come!
hahaha...

well.. mayb it is fated that i am not good at studies..
budden they always say..
if u are bad at one thing.. u will be good at the other!
i still cant find that the other..
Roar..
or mayb i dun have that the other?
searching searching searching searchng...
it's such a chore sia~
y cant u just let me know it once and for all and i go and develop it..
i is tired..
tired of being lousy..
tired of being reprimanded as lousy..
tired of knowing tt in reality I IS LOUSY!
hahahaahah..

okie.. dun think i am not ok or utterly sad..
i am perfectly fine and in a good state of mind!
i have been taking bad results till now..
so u shld know how i cope it..
is just tt..
abit sad tt i cant flaunt my results!
hahahaha..

well.. i am searching.. for smth to flaunt!!!
roar~ wad exactly is the smth that i am searching in life??
what exactly is important to me in life??

- 1 week exactly to States -